You Lost Me (TimeTay breakup)

Confrontation

It is my birthday

And I suggested to Porsche i wanted to celebrate it at the bar

Where i saw everything

And today will be the last day for me to lift that final weight

I know I'm going to look my best

Because I was insecure back then but now I realize i was stupid

Because hey, I'm perfect to myself and i love that

I haven't seen you since that Friday 

And I know you don't know about that incident

Because you never came back.

I looked at myself in the mirror

At my sexy outfit

My long hair which i refused to cut

My face that use to look drained is full of life and color

And brought back the smile that almost disappeared

I'm one work of art 

I arrived at the party 

Last person to arrive, that is

And i completely blocked out your existence

Tonight is my night and i am going to enjoy

The others cheered me on as i drank shots after shots 

I felt your stares, but I'm ignoring it

I was lost in both alcohol and music

Until Porsche came over and asked if i wanted to say anything before we get even more wasted than we already are

That was it, my opportunity, I nodded as he led me to the stage

I grabbed the microphone, and the music turned down

"I guess everyone is enjoying my birthday as much as I am, right?" I said into the mic as they cheered and whistled, I took another sip from the bottle i took from the bartender.

"Normally i wouldn't do this, but I got things to say and let out" I said sitting on the stage in front of anyone because if i stand any longer I'm gonna fall

"Anyways thanks for being here with me, but my biggest thanks go out to Porsche for saving me that day" The enter place went quiet and my eyes met Porsche as he smiled and nodded at me

"What happen that day you maybe wondering, I almost killed myself" I spoke way too happily for anyone's liking

"You cheated on me, right there in front of my eyes but I wanted to be oblivious and stupid so i ignored, ignored it to the point I ended up hurting myself, I don't want to travel down that road by explaining everything that you made me do to myself but i'd like to say this Time,"

 I finally said his name, It doesn't make me smile like back then, but it's good I'm okay now.

"I met him, by the way hi Tem, anyways you better keep him just like that promise 'Always and Forever' Anyways last but not least I'm breaking up with you, should have done the moment i saw you touching him at this same club a couple of months ago or the moment you kept disappearing and showing up with new hickies and different perfume scents, So I'm saying it again, It's over, I'm done"

 I got up placing back the mic where it was, I could hear the gasp and the deadly long silence, walking off the stage i saw everyone looking at you, some with disappointment most with anger especially Porsche.

I wanted to shake off the tension in the place

It's my birthday, I need everyone to be happy along with me

So i gave a look to the DJ and he nodded and began playing music

I grabbed my bottle and began drinking and laughing like crazy, enjoying myself

Even if it's just me, I stumbled over to where Porsche and his friends sat 

"I'm fine the weight is lifted now dance with me and make me happier than i am" I whispered, he smiled at me and hugged me as he dragged his friends up to start dancing along with us.

I am happy

The weight is gone

This is exactly what i need to be free

I let the music consume my thoughts

As i happily dance and drink

I never once turned to look at you

Then again, I don't care anymore

I'm happy you're happy 

And I'm also happy that I'm done