The beast inside me (KDA x male reader)

Chapter 1

The city today is quieter than usual. While you look down on the road below you can't help but wonder how many different people pass by every hour, how many different lives, how many different stories. Does it have a meaning? You used to think there would always be an happy ending, that no matter the circumstances, things would turn out for the best if you really tried. This wasn't the case for you, you tried so much, yet you failed. Even tho you were strong, everything was taken from you. Could you have done things differently? Could you have prevented it? These questions roam your head since then. Since that day when you were just walking down the hall of your college during your lunch break, and another of those comments from the bullies came to your ears. You were used to them, they bullied you for every reason they managed to get. You were an orphan, you looked weird, too slim, too foreign, you weren't good at sports and you always dragged your team down, you were too good at the other subjects tho, and you never had a girlfriend, but all the girls liked you, even the girlfriend of Roderick, heir to a Demacian business empire, and the guy that was bullying you that day. Poor guy, he didn't know what was coming to him. He thought you had no powers, and you thought so too, but when that comment came to your ears, on that faithful day, something on your brain turned on, something you never knew you had. Something took over your body and spoke with a hateful, angry, alien-sounding voice, and tore poor Roderick's stomach apart. When the police arrived they didnt find you, nobody found you after that, you were on the run, and you still are, even tho most of the people probably forgot about you at this point, and they forgot about poor Roderick as well. But you didn't, you couldn't. You never accepted what happened, you never could live with it, and you still can't. That same voice that spoke for you, it comes out sometimes, yet it mostly stays within, talking to you. Almost like a friend, it also has a name, Kha'zix, it's what it calls himself. Apparently it was some sort of void being in its past and when it died, the void gave it life again inside your mind. The universe is chaos, irrationality, and we can only accept what is brings. Fortune can change your life any moment. It helped you on many occasions. You should feel special, yet you hate yourself for something that you did, but didn't choose to. On this day, as you are looking down on the road, you question yourself if you should jump. Everyday you come here, you smoke a cigarette, and you decide today is not the day. One day you'll do it, you say, but not today.

As you inhale the last smoke out of your cigarette, you throw it down in the street and you turn around, eager to just leave. Yet someone speaks to you.

???: "Too sunny to kill yourself?"

You barely notice the woman talking to you. She's tall, stunningly beatiful and her hair is purple. She's wearing purple sunglasses and she's smoking as well. You take some seconds to answer.

Y/N: "Dont feel like it today, too many people down there"

???: "Why not at night then?"

Y/N: "I can't do it while the starts watch me, im sorry"

???: "Oh you're so poetic"

Y/N: "Why do you care anyway?"

???: "I don't, it's just that it's the 10th time ive seen you here, and everytime you lean closer, but dont do it, whats stopping you?"

Y/N: "I still have some hope, weirdly enough, and my head is telling me not to"

???: "I think everybody's head tells them that, sweetie"

Y/N: "No no, I mean, literally, my mind speaks to me"

???: "Oh, I see, well what does it say about me?"

Y/N: "It says your meat probably tastes good, and would like to have a taste"

???: "Ah so this is just an elaborate way to ask me out, boring"