2022

CHAPTER TWELVE - Never Ending Problems Pt. 2

I know, you're probably wondering why I didn't put the full letter when I'm not using the real names. Well, that's because I already published this novel using the real names and had to take it down to change the names. Lots of people already read it so they'd still know the real names.

The letter was way longer than that, it would even be a chapter on its own and I removed a lot of things she said, especially about herself because like come on, how'd you feel if someone... You know what, never mine. Hehe. I'll attach a screenshot of the official letter but of course, the same parts I hid in this one, I'll hid certain parts in that one.

So, as you already know, Selena and I continued talking to each other, even after the incident with her parents coming over. But of course, we were not dating. We were just friends. Yeah, words nobody likes.

I know you want to know how I responded to her message or letter, call it what you like.

This is what I said, "Well, first of all, that's the longest message anyone has ever sent to me. Don't worry about it boss, I know why you react like that and all. It's because of what you're going through and like I always say, you'll pull through. I forgive you, I always do the moment you do something to me. You're special too. I won't lie, I won't forget the bad times. It's hard for me to forget moments that hurt me but I'll try to cover them up with the good memories. I hate it when the girl I love hates herself. What does that mean to me? So don't hate yourself and keep trying to do better"

That was my response. Well, responses because there were like three different messages.

So, I remember very well, it was in April, of course it was in April. I was at Mkhuzo's place. Oh, you don't know Mkhuzo, do you?

So, Mkhuzo S. Lupenga is a friend of mine from the area who I've known since 2017, his brother is Mazunda Lupenga. For those of you who have read "The Uprising" You probably know Mazunda.

I was at Mkhuzo's place. This was a day after she sent the letter or message, call it whatever you like. Hehe. Schools were out and we were on our one-month holiday or break, whatever you'd call it.

That day, on 27th April, 2022, Selena and I spoke for the last time, well that's what I thought, and she said she'd text me after she's done with school which would be 2 years later in 2024.

That same day, Selena gave me her account password and told me to delete her Instagram account for her. Well, if you know these things, you probably know that for an account to be deleted, you first have to deactivate it, then thirty days after that, it's permanently deleted.

Of course, we had that moment where you like have few words to say to each other. Below are just certain parts gotten from our chat on that day.

Selena: I have an important question to ask.

Me: Ask me.

Selena: Sooooo.... When I get a phone of my own and I text you, are you interested in going on a date with me?

Me: Of course. I thought you'd not be interested.

Selena: Why wouldn't I be interested?

Me: I don't even know. Lol

Selena: Okay so promise me that no matter what girl walks into your life, that date is going to happen, I won't care if you have a girlfriend or someone you're interested in or she's the one. Lol. I won't care at all.

Me: I turned down all the girls that have walked in my life in the past month because I live by faith not by sight. Lol

That was just a short conversation we had. More is coming. Why did I say I live by faith and not sight? (Crying emoji) I don't even know what I meant.

~April 27, 2022. 16:43.

Selena: Boy, I think it's time now.

Me: Ohhhhhh Alright.

Selena: Anything you have to say?

Me: Honestly, I don't have anything to say. Like, I don't know what to say. All I know is that I will wait for you.

Selena: And I'll still be here for you. No matter the distance or how long it will take. I'll come back to my baby because I never want to be too far from home.

Me: I'll be waiting for your text and I'll be ready for that date. There will be a lot to catch up on. You'll be okay, don't worry. Be a good girl. Love You! You don't have to reply. Send a heart emoji and I'll proceed.

Selena sent the heart emoji and that was the go sign, I logged into her account and disabled it and after thirty days, it would be permanently deleted.

Selena and I never spoke for a month. It was hard and rough. I clearly remember failing my end of term one tests because it was hard to focus on school with everything I went through.

Schools opened in May. I was getting back to normal; I was doing well in school again. I remember this day like it was yesterday, it was a Sunday, Suwi and I just came back from Shammah's church where there was a conference and we had lunch.

I was in my room on my laptop. At this time, my phone was damaged, even the other phone I used got damaged, so I was using my laptop. It was 29th May, 2022. The time was 20:12. Just at that same time, I received a notification on my laptop from Instagram. I saw that it was from Selena and I remember screaming, "What's wrong with Selena!?"

Suwi was confused, he was blown, he was bang like out of nowhere, I just say that. It was a long, quite disturbing paragraph. Of course, I won't put everything that was in her message because of other reasons that I will not be mentioning. Below is the conversation.

Selena: Hi. I cancelled the deletion on Wednesday, and I didn't text you because I know we're not supposed to be talking. The real reason why I cancelled the deletion is because I needed some answers. I had so many questions to ask and the only way to solve the problems I had was to get the answers. So, I apologized to him, and my questions were answered. I know you've always doubted me and expected me to go back to him. You're right. I don't know how to let go and I don't want to. I was told he did stuff with Natalie (Not Sex!). It broke me to pieces, but he did it because I was dating you. I forgave him and I'm willing to put everything behind me. I'm not saying I'm dating him or going to date him. Not by any chance. I will only be ready for relationships after grade 12 but I just want to see where this could go.

I think we've had quite a longer chapter. Let's finish this in the final chapter. The book finale.