Mates

Chapter 14

Winnie’s POV

After I meet with Selina I decide to go to my bedroom and rest. I haven’t had much rest since Liam left and now I know he is okay and happy. I can fully rest. I am so happy for my friends and their mates. 

However, I would be lying if I said I wasn’t a little jealous. I wish I could be loved like a mate should be but I guess that isn’t in the cards for me.  

I lay my hand on my growing belly.  It is okay at least I have you guys.  I will love you no matter what. This is the best way to have my mates without being hurt by them anymore.
I fall asleep with this as my last thought.

I am walking in a clearing with trees all around it. This place is so beautiful. The field has white and yellow daisies everywhere along with honeysuckle. I walk to the biggest tree I have ever seen, it has roots above the ground that are twisted into a big tree as I continue to look at this tree I look up. This tree is so tall too. At this, I hear a woman say 
“It is beautiful isn’t it?”

I shake my head. I look at her, she is the most beautiful woman I have ever seen.  She says 
“Thank you, Winnie, you are beautiful too.”
I freeze. Did I say that out loud? I don’t think so.  
“No, daughter you are thinking it however I can read minds and thoughts.  I know exactly how you feel, think, and act always.”

Okay that is so weird and if I am being honest a little creepy.  What I would do with a gift like that?  I would have known about Abel and Cain’s true thoughts about me. I would have saved myself so major heartbreak.  
“Yes it would have but you wouldn’t be who you are today. I need and want this Winnie. You are so strong.  I just need you to believe in yourself.”

Okay, this lady is crazy. I am not strong. I do agree I need to believe in myself. I am trying but I feel I keep getting crapped on. I a big sigh after that thought.  
"No Winnie you are strong not every wolf could have gone through losing her mate let alone two. Those two wolves of mine are buttheads and I am truly sorry that they hurt you so bad. Nonetheless, I need you to forgive them and go back to them.

As she says all this to me.  I think who this woman is.  My two wolves? Forgive them?  I laugh out loud at that thought. She has got to be kidding me. I can’t forgive them. Everyone will think I am stupid, naive, and pathetic. Plus my self-esteem is already shot that is just asking for trouble.  
I look at this woman getting ready to tell her 
“NO” 

Instead the question “Who are you?” comes out first.
“I am the Moon Goddess, Serena. I am your mother. “
Yeah okay. Why is she talking to me? I have never heard of the Moon Goddess coming and talking to wolves like this. Why me?

“I am here because you are special Winnie.  I need you to forgive your mates and raise your family together. This depends on the rest of the werewolf community. I need you to be happy daughter. There are people in your life right now that would create such havoc on the werewolf community if you don’t forgive and go back. Please, daughter.”
I think I don’t think I can do that. Not yet. Please don’t make me do this. I need to grow some confidence in myself. I need to have my babies. I want to be truly strong first.  

“I can agree to that. Also, I will give you a gift if you go back to forgive your mates.”
What kind of gift?
“My gift of reading minds, thoughts, and feelings. That way you can prevent yourself from being hurt anymore.”
That would be so cool.  I don’t know because then I would have to know everyone's thoughts and be responsible for that.  If someone has ill will towards someone I would be responsible to help make that potentially bad thing happen.  

“Yes that is true but you are 100% capable of all of that.  I do need you to promise not to tell anyone except your mates if you want to.”
That would be a problem I would never tell anyone. They would think I was nuts.  
“Okay, I promise,” I tell her but I also say 
"I am not ready to go back yet. Can I wait until after my babies are born?”

“Yes, I will agree to that. I have to go now, daughter. I love you. Remember you are strong. You are my daughter. Plus use your gift don’t be afraid of it.”
She walks away.

I jolt awake. I sit up, grab my belly and see I am still pregnant, and tell myself it is just a dream. Like the Moon Goddess would come to me.