CW: Blood, Mentions of Death, Mentions of Child Abuse
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December 17th, 1979
He hadn't slept the entire night. The thought of sleeping hadn't even crossed his mind. He had spent the entire night writing a letter. It wasn't the letter he still had to send to Lucius, that letter was completely useless to him now. No, this was a letter far more important. A note to tell an enemy that he had lost and hadn't even known.
He had finally finished drafting it just as the sun was rising. He was exhausted. He wanted to shut his eyes for a while, there wasn't anyway he'd be able to leave just yet anyways. He would need to go at night, when no one could catch him. When the world was asleep and not a single eye would be on him.
Regulus held up the letter and leaned back in his chair. He read it all over again carefully.
To the Dark Lord,
I know I will be dead long before you read this but I want you to know that it was I who discovered your secret. I have stolen the real Horcrux and intend to destroy it as soon as I can. I face death in the hope that when you meet your match, you will be mortal once more.
R.A.B.
He dropped the paper onto his desk once more and sat straight up again. He was so tired... so very, very tired.
It was as if the weight of the entire world had finally caved in on him and he had no choice left but to let it collapse over his body and consume him. He had no choice left, but at least this one was his.
Would his family be furious if they ever discovered what he was about to do? Absolutely. Would they have beaten him into submission until he was just another mindless Death Eater, willing to be a servant to the Dark Lord? Probably. Was he ever going to give them that opportunity? Not anymore.
What would Sirius have thought of this? His brother who he hadn't spoken to in two years, who had decided they were no longer family. Would he have called him an idiot for doing something so dangerous or would he have been proud of him for finally doing what he believed was truly right?
He wondered what Sirius would be doing about now. Probably something heroic and daring as he always seemed to be doing.
Maybe he ought to talk to Sirius before he goes off on his own like this. Seek him out and explain his plan - that he knows how they can win. No... he couldn't possibly drag Sirius into danger like this. Godric knows he would be the first to put his life on the line for this. And if the rest of the Order of the Phoenix found out about it all? Well, then there would go his plans of keeping this quiet, making sure he had time before the Dark Lord discovered what he had done.
No, no, no... He needed to do it alone. He couldn't risk his plans being ruined. He couldn't risk anyone being involved. He couldn't risk anyone else being hurt but himself. Because who was he kidding? Who would care if Regulus Black got hurt? No one ever seemed to care if he were hurt, so why not let his life be the one to tiptoe the line between life and death?
Regulus finally dragged himself away from his desk again and threw himself into his bed, just as the sun began to shine in through the cracks between his curtains. He buried his head into his pillows and closed his eyes tight, enjoying the softness and warmth of his own bed. For all he knew, it would be the last time. He wanted to enjoy it while he could.
He slept through most of the day. Not once did anyone bother him or check to see why he hadn't left his room. Everyone was too busy to care. That was, except for Kreacher, who never once tried to wake him, but instead left him a few biscuits and a cup of tea on his bedside table that was still steaming when he finally woke up.
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Faith in Fear | A Regulus Black Story.
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