The Girl with the Red Eyes

Chapter 9

Alexa's POV

I stormed to my car, grabbing my keys, license holder, and phone on the way out. I had to release some anger, so I went to our local gym. The owner was a guy from my clan, and I was in here frequently. I walked in my hair and eyes still set aflame. I guess Jacob, the gym owner, noticed my appearance and quickly led me to a private room so the humans wouldn't be suspicious about my hair and my strength.

The room was made out of mirror walls and was mainly filled with punching bags and dummies, mainly for situations like this. I just beat the crap out of those dummies for about 30 minutes before I found myself in the middle of the room staring at the open mirror.

My knuckles where bleeding from punching so much. My hair and eyes had gone back to their normal black. My eyes which usually have a sparkle didn't, they looked lifeless. I looked lifeless.

What did I do to deserve, everything that I've been through. I lost my best friend, my sister, the one person I could tell everything to, and know she would never judge me. I was given Pack Fighter at a young age. I was never able to live like a normal teenager. I could never have a boyfriend or real friends, other than Cameron.

I can't even accept my mate. Why couldn't he be a vampire. It would make everything so much simpler. And Prince Xavier. I hate his guts. Why did he have to pick me, out of all the women in the world, why me?

I have had so much crap thrown on me at such a young age. And I was tired of it. I had one solution to escape the pain. I would flip that magical switch all of us creatures have. An escape from pain.

I would continue to live my life, everyday just like normal. Except without emotion, basically. I won't feel love, happiness, anger, or pain. I won't have to feel the pain I get every time I see Joshua, knowing I can't ever be with him. 

It wouldn't really effect anyone anyways. I was almost heartless before anyways. Most people would probably be happy, knowing they wouldn't have to face my wrath anymore. When I flip this switch, I really have no turning back. I'll be stuck like that for no telling how long. But that's what I want.

I flipped the switch mentally, and felt a rush of emotions before everything went neutral. I looked in the mirror and saw my eyes. They where all black, except for the little bit of white that was surrounding the iris.

I walked out of the room grabbing my stuff and walked through the gym. I saw Jacob's eyes widen before he said, "Goodbye Lex." I gave a short nod, acknowledging him.

Once you flip the switch you very rarely talk. Only when it is necessary. I drove home, my eyes never leaving the road.

When I arrived at the house, I parked my car and walked to the front door. I opened the door and was walking through the living room which was surprisingly empty. I was almost to the stairs, when Cameron pulled me into a bear hug. "Thank Goodness you're okay Lex, I was so worried," he said while squeezing me tightly.

I just kept my arms down by my side, and stood straight, not returning his hug. I guess he noticed and that was when he looked up at me, keeping his hands on my shoulders; me still not moving or even acknowledging him.

His eyes widened and he said, "Alexa, what did you do?" He kept searching my face as if it held all his answers to the questions he was asking. He raised his voice this time and was basically screaming, "ALEXA WHAT THE HELL DID YOU DO!" His yelling attracting peoples attention.

My parents, Cameron's parents, his mate Elizabeth, Joshua, Lucas, Alpha Russell and his wife, and a few other residents of the house where filing into the living room. My father, rushed to us, taking Cameron's spot, while his eyes, searched my face.

 "No. Alexa. Please tell me you didn't," he said with a pleading voice, with him already close to tears. I just stared straight, never once did my eyes turn to look at anyone. "Please ALEXA TELL ME YOU DIDN'T!" he screamed while tears started pouring down his face.

His breakdown had no effect on me. It was as if I basically had no heart anymore. Nothing could hurt me ever again. My mother rushed to comfort my father, while Cameron asked frantically, "What did she do?" He was also in tears with Elizabeth wrapping her arms around his waist, trying to comfort him.

My father looked up slightly at me, pain in his eyes, "She... flipped her switch." Mother immediately broke down beside my father, both of them trying to comfort each other. Elizabeth began to cry and tried to contain Cameron, but she wasn't strong enough. He rushed up to me pain and anger in his eyes.

"How could you be so STUPID! Why would you do something like that! Why ALEXA? WHY?" He began to slowly fall to his knees with his hands in his hair, while Elizabeth came to sit beside him.

I made my way upstairs and towards my bedroom, like nothing had just happen. Nothing affected me, and I kinda liked it. The blank, empty feeling almost felt pleasant compared to what I've had to live with my whole life.

I got to my room and sat on my window seat and just stared out the window, excepting the empty feeling.

Joshua's POV

I sat there on the stairs, silently crying. Why would she do this? Once people flip their switch they never go back to normal. They either go mad and on a killing rampage; die of depression; or stay emotionless for the rest of their lives. Why would she do such a stupid thing.

Everyone in the room was upset, especially her parents and Cameron. My parents tried to comfort her mother and father, while they cried for the loss of their daughter.

It's a big deal when someone flips their switch. Because, everyone knows they will never be the same again. You basically lose that person. They have no emotion. They feel nothing, absolutely nothing.

My poor mate. She must have had a terrible life for it to lead her this far. I just sat there knowing there was now no possible way for me to get her now. It was a slim chance before, and now there really isn't one.

Cameron walked over to me and said, "Please Josh. I know you're her mate. Please try and do something. Maybe you can pull her out of it." He sounded hopeful, hoping that maybe, just maybe, he could get his best friend back.

I nodded and mumbled a small of course, as we walked to her room, him right behind me. When we got to her room he stayed at the door while I walked towards her. She was sitting on her window seat just staring out at the world. From the back she looked like an innocent little angel. Her small frame sitting there cuddled up to a pillow. Her beautiful black hair flowing down her back. If you just saw her from the back you would never think that there was nothing wrong.

But when you got to the side and saw her face. She  looked lifeless. Her eyes held no sparkle, and her face held not one emotion. I sat beside her and called her name. She just sat there continuing to stare out of the window. It was as if she didn't hear me. I called her name multiple more times, and still no response.

I knew why she wasn't responding. She didn't care that I was in the room. She had no desire to speak to me or to speak to anyone. That's what happens when you flip the switch. I just couldn't believe the person I was born to love, couldn't love, couldn't hurt, couldn't feel anything. She had no emotion.

It was heartbreaking.

I sighed, hurt that she couldnt have even turned to look at me and acknowledge me. I grabbed her chin gently, and turned her face towards mine.

Her eyes where almost all black, except for a small ring of white. She used to have such beautiful eyes. Black that sparkled like the stars, and red that glowed like a flame. I kissed her forehead and walked back to my room. And cried myself to sleep.

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