struggling (stan x kyle)

I'm Gay

Kyles POV

*ring ring ring*

i woke up to my obnoxious alarm going off. School sucks. I got out of bed and walked to my bathroom to shower and get ready. once i finished i walked outside and jumped in my car and headed to school.

once i got to the school i saw the usual group all sitting in the back of stans truck. i stepped out of my car and walked over to them and hopped in.

kyle: whats up guys!
cartman: hey jew.
stan:shut up fatass

Stan then got up and walked over to me and sat down. He forgot his hat i assumed from seeing his black raven hair flowing in the winter breeze. he smiled at me then patted my back.

stan: Hey guys did you here that Token is having a party tomorrow?
Kenny: Hell yeah. i'm gonna go to that and sleep with whoever i can.
Stan: yeah we should all go!
Cartman: will they have food?

i rolled my eyes when cartman asked such a stupid question.

Kyle: your an idiot cartman.
cartman: at least i'm not a stupid jew.
Kyle: whatever. yeah i'll go but i'm not a big party guy so you guys owe me one.
Stan: i'll give you more than one.

i had no idea what stan meant by that but i felt my checks get hot from that. i only realized recently that i have had a massive crush on stan for as long as i can remember. but he's always dating so many girls and i just know he's straight. i just wish he felt the same but who can blame him.

Soon the bell rang and we all got up and walked inside. Stan and i had first period together so we always sat next to each other. i just listened to the teacher and kept writing my notes. i noticed this girl named Heidi looking at me a lot and stan also noticed. He nudged me and starting whispering to me.

Stan: yo i think that Heidi girl is into you.
Kyle: psh i'm not dating no girl that's kissed cartman before.
Stan: c'mon man! she's into you. this can be your chance!
Kyle: i tried a long time ago and she left me for him. that's the last time i will ever try.
Stan: dude we were kids who cares.
Kyle: I do

i sat there just sad for awhile. i wish stan wouldn't pressure me into dating someone other than him. but hey what do i know. soon the bell rang and i packed my stuff and went to the bathroom. once i got there i went in the stall and pulled out a bottle of vodka. most people think of me as the good kid. they never suspect me to drink or smoke, but man sometimes being "perfect" i need something to take my mind off of things. today i need this. i quickly chugged a bunch and put in back in my backpack and quickly walked out.

STANS POV

I was walking out of class and noticed Kyle rush into the bathroom. i followed because he looked upset. when i walked in there i saw him go into the last stale and close the door. i just assumed he needed to go bad or something so i shrugged it off and walked out.

~skip to lunch~

Me, Kenny, Cartman, craig, Tweek, and Clyde we're all sitting down eating. i noticed Kyle was not here so i got up to look for him. suddenly the door slammed open. it was kyle. he looked a mess. he stumbled over to me with a big smile. he started talking but was slurring his words.

Kyle: YO token your party is gonna be so fun!
Stan: Kyle? you okay?
Kyle: of course i'm okay! when am i not!
Stan: Kyle come on.

i grabbed Kyle and dragged him to the bathroom. Once we got inside he hugged me immediately. He smelled of alcohol. All i could think was kyle drinks?

Stan: have you been drinking?
Kyle: waaat? noo? never.
Stan: Kyle?

all kyle could do was smile at me which worried me a little.

Kyle: stan?
Stan: since when did you start drinking?
Kyle: your really pretty Stan.

he booped my nose and i just blushed a little. Man he drank a lot. I grabbed him and walked him over to my car. Looks like i'm skipping today. I put him in my passenger seat then got in and started driving to my house. His parents are strict i could never bring him home like this. plus my mom is never home and my dad left us years ago.

I walked him up to my room and laid him down. He practically knocked out instantly. I went down stairs and made some Tea and brought some crackers. I sat them down next to him and just looked at him. He looked so cute laying there. wait.. WHAT! I don't know what i was just thinking. i'm not gay. and i definitely don't like Kyle. Do i?

A couple hours passed then kyle started waking up. he got up rubbing his head. He looked very confused for a second then started freaking out.

Kyle: no no NO!
Stan: Hey hey it's okay here.

i handed him the tea and crackers. i used to drink a lot and i know this always helped me when i was drunk. I stopped because i promised my mom for the sake of her mental health.

Kyle started to drink the Tea and eat the crackers. He didn't look up once since he woke up. he seemed very upset.

Stan: you okay?

he signed

Kyle: yeah, im sorry.
Stan: hey man don't stress out. Here.

i turned on a movie and gave him clean clothes. his other once smelled like alcohol.

Stan: so when did you start?
Kyle: about a few weeks ago.
Stan: I can tell. you don't react well to bring drunk man.
Kyle: I know. i just been so stressed and it just helped you know?
Stan: i'll help you with whatever you need Kyle.

he smiled at me then changed. he laid back down and covered up. i went ahead and went downstairs to make dinner for me, my mom, and now Kyle. I then texted his mom that he was staying here with me tonight. Because it was Friday, I knew she wouldn't care. I then brought Kyle some food and gave him some water.

Kyle: why are you not mad at me?
Stan: because i understand.
Kyle: i guess your right.
Stan: you want to tell me what happened now?

he started to tear up so i hugged him tight

Kyle: Stan...
Stan: yes Kyle?
Kyle: I'm.. I'm gay.

i hugged him even tighter and rubbed his back.

Stan: it's okay Kyle.
Kyle: really?
Stan: yes i support you. i honestly am questioning myself.

he then pulled away and looked at me confused.

Stan: what?
Kyle: but your always with a new girl like ever month.
Stan: I am just trying to get my mind off of someone.
Kyle: you don't have to say who but can i ask something else.
Stan: yes of course
Kyle: wh.. What made you question?

Stan: i uh...