Part Of Him | Park Seonghwa

Chapter 19

Morgan's POV

I felt pain on my tummy, and I can't bring myself to get up. It's Friday and I need to get up. I have a presentation, and I don't really feel well. I looked at the clock and it's 7 in the morning, sooner or later, Charlotte will bang on my door. After few minutes, I can't hold it anymore so I got up, and went to open my door. Just in time, I found Charlotte standing in front of my room, her fist raise mid-air. Then her knuckle meet my forehead gently. "Oops, wrong door."

Not in the mood to argue. I just show an annoyed look, then asked her to move as I walk. It gets worse. "Wow, did you just ignore me. A miracle." I stopped walking, as the pain intensifies. "Are you going to kick me now?" I groan as it gets hard to stand. I could feel the sweat building up on my forehead. I heard Charlotte's footsteps, and she's talking but I can't bring myself to listen. My head's hurt too, then I felt nauseated. "Oh my are you okay?" I push her aside gently and run to the bathroom.

I opened the toilet and started vomiting. Charlotte's panicking outside, and it's not helping. She entered, helping me hold my hair. "Please wait a little bit Morgan, Nara's coming she can help." Using her free hand, Charlotte rub my back. When I felt like I'm not throwing up anymore, I flushed the toilet, wash my mouth and dry it, using the towel she handed me.

She help me got down, and told me to sit on sofa. Few minutes, she go back to me, holding a glass of water. "Here take this, it's luke warm." I thanked her, drinking the water. I finished the water, then hand her back the glass. I rested my head on the backrest. This is the worst feeling I've ever felt before. There's a knock on the door, I think it's Nara.

"Morgan what happened?" I'm surprised to hear Dorothy's worried voice. She sat beside me, and I can't even bring myself to look at her. "Mother told me to bring you at the hospital, whatever is the result." I got confused, so I look at her while my head still on the backrest.

"This will show the result." I heard Nara said, so even though I don't want to move, I sit properly and look at her waving hand. She walk closer, tossing it to me. I give her a questioning look, glancing at the other two. Charlotte shrugged, and point the bathroom.

"Just go and follow the instructions." I forcefully drag myself to the bathroom, and read the instructions on the box. It's a pregnancy test. So I did as what is written here, I waited and heard them outside. I open the door letting them in. We were all anticipated to see the result. Then Nara took it, she glance at us.

"It's positive." Charlotte's lips parted, her eyes shifting from me and to the two pregnancy test on Nara's hand. Dorothy, pat my back. "But let's go to hospital to make sure."

"Will you be fine?" Dorothy asked, the concern lacing on her tone. I looked at them. I bit my lip, but terribly failed as I started to cry. "Shh, it's okay."

When we arrived at the hospital, Stephie and their mother welcomed us. They led us to ob-gyne area, and introduce us to doctor Bae. "We'll be on our duty, so we'll leave you guys here." As they left, the doctor started to do her job, and using an apparatus she put on my stomach, while moving it slowly, she asked me to look at the screen.

"Congrats, you're two weeks pregnant." I didn't pay attention on the next thing she said, but I heard them react. I don't want to get rid of this baby, but at the same time I wish it's not there. I was hoping to wake up,  and find out this was just a dream. But to feel the pain, it's letting me know it's my reality. She left us with few instructions, then the room became noisy.

"Are you gonna tell this to Seonghwa?" Charlotte asked.

"No I won't."

"Why? He has the right to know Morgan, it's his child."

"I don't want to, didn't you see? His parents grounded him for something he didn't intended to do." I told her. "What else can his parents do to him, if they found out he got me pregnant? They won't like it, it could ruin their reputation knowing we're not even a thing."

"Morgan relax, that's not good for the child." Dorothy remind me. Charlotte nodded, telling me she understand. As I got up and left the bed, Dorothy's mother and sister came to our sight, asking about the result and we told them about it. Which earn a rather excited reaction. I thought they're going to be disappointed and disgusted, but seems like they accept the child better than me.

"It's a blessing Morgan, please don't ever think that, the child will bring you misfortunes okay?" Dorothy's mother hug me, and said she'll be there to guide me, and will help me with this. And I couldn't be happier to have them in my life. I'm so grateful because, despite having a broken family, I met people who welcomed me like their own.

"Thank you so much everyone, without any of you, I don't think I'll be able to handle this." I smiled weakly. I hope I can tell this to Seonghwa, but I'm just too afraid I'll bring trouble. "How about my study?" They all shared a glance and back at me.

"Just homeschool." Nara suggested, but I don't how it's going to be. Will I even know what to do, without teacher's guidance? It seems hard to think.

"Yeah, we'll talk to the school Morgan, you don't have to go there we'll take care of it." Charlotte assured. They hugged me, telling me we should start planning of the name, when we have no idea of what gender could it be. We also agreed with being honest with school about my pregnancy, however it should be kept private. They sent me home, while they went straight to the school.

I spent my whole day inside the apartment, then I remember my brother, he has all the right to know. With a trembling hand, I dialed his number. It didn't last for long as he answered. "Hey Morgan sweety, how are you?"  I smiled at his voice, missing him more right now.

"Brother, I have something to tell you."

"Sure, what is it?"

"Please don't be mad, I'm... I'm pregnant." The line went silent for few minutes before he asked me how did it happened. So I explained everything from the exhibition till the moment I woke up beside Seonghwa.

"Does he knows about this?"

"No,"

"Why? Morgan, he has the right to know, are you going to be fine? You want me to come home?" I explained to him why I won't tell Seonghwa, and also told him that I'm fine, because I have the girls with me and their parents were there to support me.  At this point, I don't feel sad about my parents anymore. I don't care about them, I have the reason to focus on myself and my life, I have the reason to move forward.

Seonghwa might be not here for the time being, at least I will continue to wake up each day with the part of him, that no one can ever take away. I stroke my tummy, and smile. I can't wait to see you.

Before evening, Charlotte with Nara and Dorothy came home, telling me that they managed to convinced Mr. Lee on keeping the secret. And that he allowed me to homeschool because of the particular reason, and that he'll be the one to explain it to my teachers. Also, because it's also part of school's responsibility. Knowing the fact that Seonghwa disagree with the idea of party, yet they still consider.

About Seonghwa, I wrote a letter earlier at hospital, telling him that I'll be away for long, that if he ever decided to like someone else, I won't mind, but I will still continue to like him. I also said on the letter, that I'll comeback, it's just that I'm not sure when, it might took years. On the last part of the letter, I wrote there that I loved him and hope we'll meet again one day, I also say sorry for how sudden it is.

I asked Charlotte to give the letter to Hongjoong, and let him bring it to Seonghwa. As few days went by pretty quickly, Dorothy said she heard from Yunho that, Seonghwa hasn't comeback yet. And when they asked Hongjoong, he said that it was because of me. I felt bad, and wanted to meet him right away, but I can't. I hope he'll be able to collect himself again, and focus on his study.