Bad Boi or Cutie Girl ?...(FreenBecky)

Part 45

Namo's POV...

I inhaled and exhaled my breath sharply, Freen attention now is on me.

Freen: hey? Are you okay? Are you not feeling well?

Namo: no I'm okay...actually Freen...ermm remember I said something before about my past?

Freen: uh hum...

Namo: ermmm I think I'm ready to tell you now...

Freen: but you seems like you're not ready yet, Namo...don't push yourself...I can wait tho...

Namo: no. I have to do this now or I don't know when I can tell you about the truth...no matter what I have to accept the result by today...

Me and Freen at my cafe but we choose to sit far from other customers so that they don't know what we are talking about or at least if Freen mad at me about my past I'm not that embarrassed because people are not around us.

Freen: okay...my attention is all yours now...

Namo: Freen...I don't think...we can be together...

Freen: hm? why? ar-are you rejecting me?

Namo: no no listen...let me explain...I know this sounds so cliche but you're too perfect for someone like me...

Freen: hm? I don't get it, Namo...

Namo: you're kind person, you have a pure heart, you have a pure soul everything about you is just perfect...it—it doesn't fit me...if I tell you about my past you'll understand why I say this...

Freen: Namo...

Namo: I— I— I'm a dirty person...I—ermm— once got r*pe and got sexual assault by my sister-in-law...

Here it is, I finally say it and I can't even look at her eyes. While I tell her about my past story, the whole times I look down to the table.

I didn't dare to look at her eyes because I know she gonna look so disappointed and disgusted on me. After I confess about my past story, we fell into a deep silence.

I just know that this will happen, she will judge me, she will hate me, she will feel disgusted on me. The silent was too loud and it's about like 2 minutes or something I don't know but I still look down.

I bit my lips to hold myself from crying. I kept repeating "I'm sorry" in my head and here we go again my anxiety attack is attacking me. My hands shaking but I manage to cover it.

I can taste my own blood in my mouth because I bite my lips a little bit too hard and then here her reaction.

A couple of hands suddenly cup my cheeks and lifted up my face to facing her face. I took a glance at her face and I don't know what does that means, I can't read her face.

Freen: hey...It's okay...I'm proud of you that you finally open up to me, Namo.

She gently cares both of my cheeks with her thumbs, she try to comfort me like "it's okay" something. Even tho my face is facing her but my eyes not looking at her.

Freen: Namo...look at me...it's okay...hey, stop biting your lips...look it's already bleeding...

She said that while cares my lower lip with her right thumb and take a tissue to wipe the blood on my lower lip.