𝙄 𝙨𝙝𝙤𝙪𝙡𝙙'𝙫𝙚 𝙠𝙣𝙤𝙬𝙣 thirteen reasons why x reader.

part 11: my tape, our tape

Hannah:
"Part of me knew I shouldn't go to Jessica's house that night but another part of me couldn't help, but wonder what or who I might be missing out on?

I thought maybe starting, Maybe I be hanging with the wrong people. Maybe I could start over with the right person, but if I would've known what was going to happen, I would've never walked through that door.

If I'd known what would happened, what that night had in storm, I might never walked through that door, but parties have a wired magic, they're like an ultimate universe, they can make you believe anything is possible. Maybe you do fit in after all.

Jessica said she knew what she was doing, her and y/n both, but they didn't, did they Justin? And people don't really change.

Welcome to your second tape Justin Foley and of course, your especial tape, my dear sister, y/n Baker.

That night for the first time in a long time, I didn't feel invisible, I was nervous because I felt so good and I didn't wanna screw it up. I was trying to act normal but I really didn't know how.

There are four stories to tell about that night, I'll tell these two first. At first I was in Jessica's bedroom, how I did end up in that room? That's another story but for now Justin, you've been with the same girl all-night but I'm not gonna call her up by name, even though if you've been in that party, you already know.

I realized two things in that moment, number one, I was drunk and number two, so was this girl.

But I figured you just give up and leave her alone, at least, I hoped you would. I know what you're thinking, maybe if this girl or even you y/n, hadn't had so much to drink, what happened next never would've happened.

But it was a party everyone had too much to drink, and besides how can you blame someone for something that happens when they're unconscious.

You left Justin, and I had to do some- thing, I had to make him stop but I couldn't get my feet to move, it was dark in there, and the music was loud but I saw his face, I recognized his voice as clear as day, so would all of you.

But this tape isn't about him, it's about me and you Justin, you called him a friend but your girlfriend needed you

I walked out of that room, when he was done, I thought he would stop, thought one girl is enough for him, I thought maybe he called the night.

But I happened to see another drunk incident that night, this one was in the hall, I saw his lips on yours y/n, I saw his hands all over you and no, he wasn't your boyfriend, he was the guy that one girl wasn't enough for him that night.

Maybe I couldn't help that girl, maybe she wasn't as important as my own sister, at least that was what I thought so I walked to you, I tried to push the guy away and maybe I could've succeed but y/n, you pushed me back, you attacked me, you said I'm jealous of you, you said I'm a whore when I was trying to help you.

I ran away, I let that guy that you were so drunk to call him Monty all night touch you because you deserved it.
You know you do y/n, what was I to you anyway? That much of an enemy? Why?

Tell me something y/n, did the guy that you were calling friend a year deserved it to push me, your sister away? Or let me ask something else, did the man that you call boyfriend told you the truth about that night? What about Justin? Did your best friend told you what happened that night? Did you Justin?

I'll never find out but I can guess the answers, this is just how you guys are, this is how my sister is. Right y/n? You know I'm right.

At our first year, you helped me, you got grounded for me and for weeks I had guilt all over me because I thought I hurt you, I thought I was a bad sister to my own blood but the truth is, over one mistake you threw me away y/n, you were my sister but you acted like my enemy.

Anyway, let me finish my story with the next day events, that girl remembers, you probably remember y/n, I came to talk with you, after all I still believed you deserve to know, she deserves to know but even in the next day you rejected me, that time I knew, you'll never believe me, sister.

Are all of your friends honest with you? They'll never let you down? Think about it y/n, this is the least you can do for me. Well, that and listening. Which you all are doing now.

Though that girl was different from you, she had two chances that night and we both let her down, how do I live with that? How do you Justin? How does she live with what happened? How do you y/n?"

The pivot on stereo stopped, all that left was the sound of the wind crashing to her mike.

And then, in a second there were no sounds at all. Just me and  noises in my chest, my heart, it had stopped too.