The Distance Between Us

Chapter 11

As they stayed like that for a couple minutes, Hinata felt loved. He was safe with them, he wished he could stop time and savoured this moment a little longer. This is where he belonged. 

They broke apart from the hug, wiping their tears In the process. Hinata knew what he had to do to be free. He had to face the problem he's been running from all along, his parents. 

"I'm sorry I can't tell you the full sorry yet," Hinata said sniffling. 

"It's alright hinata, we'll try to be more understanding," Yamaguchi smiled. 

"We've said some hurtful things to you, sh- Hinata, we apologise for that," Kageyama said, wiping his tears. 

"It's fine,I wasn't all that good to you either," Shoyo smiled. 

Tsukishima sighed, "we should have thought about it more before we jumped to conclusions, we’re sorry hinata.”

“You can call me Shoyo,” he smiled ever so brightly. 

Their eyes softened as they stared down at him. How could they have been so foolish? They were the ones closest to him, how could they have not noticed he was struggling as much as they were? Why did it take him getting sick to notice he was struggling? Why were they so blindsighted and acted so distastefully? 

They knew they were wrong and if it meant going on their knees and begging for his forgiveness they would in a heartbeat. It hurt them to let such a beautiful soul go.  Shoyo was their sunshine, he was the warmth on their rainy days, their light on their darkest of night and oxygen when they’re drowning. They had done absolutely nothing for their dearest friend, they were such selfish fools. Hinata shoyo deserved the entire solar system even though it was impossible to give it to him, they'll certainly give him their unconditional love. 

“Shoyo, your soul is too pure for us” yachi smiled. 

“Eh you think so?” he said tilting his head. 

“She’s right, you forgave us even though we don’t deserve it,” Kageyama responded. 

Hinata just shrugged and continued to walk, “doesn’t matter let’s continue there’s so much to see!”

They smiled and continued their journey to the end. 

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“I’m home!” Hinata yelled out as he walked through the door.

He was tired from the hike and taking care of haruto. He only wished to sink himself into a salt bath and relieve his tense muscles. He had his fill of food and drinks from the picnic he had with his friends. It was quite fun. He'd for sure look back on this day fondly. ‘Right, I forgot they were on a business trip,’ Hinata sighed. Not long after he heard a pair of heavy footsteps approaching him. 

“Shoyo! Where have you been?!” his mother exclaimed “We were worried sick about you! You can’t just run off for a week and now show up!”

“Your mother is right shoyo you can’t just run away like that!” his father yelled. 

Just then something broke in Hinata, “run away? What the fuck are you to talking about?!” 

“SHOYO! THIS IS NOT HOW WE RAISED YOU!” his father screamed. 

“Raise me? YOU’VE DONE NOTHING BUT CAUSE ME PAIN AND SUFFERING SHUNSUKE! Do you know what it’s like having your parents neglect you for three years?! THREE YEARS ALL BECAUSE I’M GAY” hinata screamed. 

“SHOYO WE ARE YOUR PARENTS YOU CAN’T SPEAK TO US THAT WAY” akito yelled at him. 

“Oh don’t get me started akito. I WAS FUCKING IGNORED WHEN I WAS THROWING UP IN THE TOILET PROFUSELY.  YOU WANNA KNOW WHERE I WAS?! I WAS IN THE GOOD DAMN HOSPITAL BEING FED THROUGH A TUBE BECAUSE I COULDN’T KEEP ANY FOOD DOWN. I VOMITED OUT BLOOD AND WENT THROUGH EXCRUCIATING PAIN AND WHERE WERE YOU?! YOU DIDN’T EVEN BOTHER SENDING A FUCKING TEXT! AND GOD FORBID I BRING UP BEING GAY CAUSE ALL HELL BREAKS LOOSE THEN.” 

“HINATA SHOYO, YOU’RE NOT GAY! IT’S JUST A PHASE YOU’LL GROW OUT OF IT! YOU SHOULD GO REPENT WHILE YOU STILL HAVE TIME!” Shunsuke screamed. 

“OH YEAH?! THREE FUCKING YEARS AND I’M STILL FUCKING GAY BITCH! DO YOU KNOW WHAT IT’S LIKE BEING TWELVE AND WONDERING WHY YOUR PARENTS DON’T LOVE YOU?! WONDERING IF THEY HEAR YOU CRYING AND IF THEY’LL APOLOGISE?! DO YOU KNOW WHAT IT’S LIKE WATCHING YOU POOR YOUR HEART AND SOUL INTO NATSU WHILE I CONTEMPLATE WHETHER I’M GOOD ENOUGH TO BE HERE?! NOT TO MENTION, YOU FUCKING KEPT NATSU AWAY FROM ME! MY OWN FUCKING SISTER!” 

His parent’s stayed silent as they watched their son crumble in despair. The pain he felt for so long finally poured out of him like fireworks. Hinata now wailing as tears streamed down his face. He was standing in the place he was so restless to be out of as a kid. He wanted to meet his parents, forgetting to take off his shoes and getting in trouble after. Such fond memories only serve to hurt him more. 

“I DID EVERYTHING TO FOR YOU, I TRIED MY HARDEST JUST TO BE ENOUGH FOR YOU AND YET YOU ABANDONED ME! HOW COULD YOU HURT YOUR OWN SON?! DO YOU KNOW HOW HARD IT IS TO PLAY PRETEND WHEN OUR RELATIVES VISIT?! HOW HARD IS TO WATCH YOU LOVE NATSU?! I’M FUCKING SCARED TO LOVE BECAUSE I FARE LOSING THE ONES I LOVE! WHAT DID I DO?! I WAS JUST A KID! NO MATTER HOW HARD I TRIED TO GO BACK TO WHAT WE WERE, THE EXCUSES YOU MADE WHEN MY BIRTHDAY COMES AROUND BUT YOU’RE ALWAYS THERE FOR NATSU’S! I WAS CHILD! A CHILD WHO SAW CLEAR AS DAY THAT DIDN’T CARE OR LOVE ME!” 

Hinata was reduced to nothing but sobs as he tried to pull himself together. The river he so desperately tried to hold back finally knocked him over. He was tired from  his adventure today and then his parents came with this bullshit.  He was exhausted, he just wanted a place where he could rest peacefully for the night. The whimper of a little girl bought him out of his thoughts. He looked up and saw Natsu covering her mouth trying to muffle the noise coming from her mouth as tears streamed down her face.

“Oh Natsu, i don’t know what they told you about me but i hope you know i’m not a bad person. I’m sorry for screaming so much just now,” Hinata sniffled.'' I'm going to live with our aunt. Yes we have an aunt, her name is umeko and we have another aunt called hanami. They have the cutest little boy named Haruto and they're expecting a baby girl. They’re everything I could have asked for,  if you want to come with me they’ll accept you with open arms.” hinata said as he slowly got on his knees putting a smile on his face. 

“Shoyo..” she said, face scrunching up in tears.