Sakura

The Story

Trigger warning

I met Matt on my 18th birthday. I had run from home and went to a hotel for the night, after I unpacked and stuff. I went to the restaurant and Matt was just sitting at the bar, and when he spotted me he walked over pretty quickly and gave me his number and me being 18 and just wanting a place to stay. I took it and a few days later I moved in with him just as a place to crash till I found my own place... but after a month he decided that wasn't the plan he said I couldn't leave that he fell in love with me, I realized he was gonna hurt me if I left pretty fast so I said I loved him too i didn't though. he was using me in sexual ways daily I became so numb to it that it no longer felt like anything. I had to obey his every word and I did and after 4 months of this he believed I was brainwashed that I loved him that everything he did was okay so he let me see my friends. Honestly if he didnt do that I wouldn't be here because I told them the truth about everything though I said pretend he's a good person that I love and treat him like a friend. 6 months had passed since he first let me see my friends, but he got more and more abusive out of nowhere he decided it was time for me t-to help him with his...b-business. His "Business" was kidnapping and torturing, sometimes killing, mainly women. I may sound all calm about that but those words are the worst words I ever had to say out loud but none of this was the worst thing he ever did... and please don't get mad no one told you this happened to May because this was right before she met andrew and when she finally told him they swore till I told people it wasn't a story to tell... One day when I woke up I was tied to a pole with n-no c-clothing on as I looked around the room I was in I saw Athena in one corner with handcuffs to a chair her clothing was fully ripped up May was about 5 feet away from her, her clothes were almost all still intact, oh gosh uhm so N-nya was in the other corner with a few cuts in her shirt nothing on her legs and cuts all over her body.. s-she was still alive her eyes hardly open. I had looked more and saw 2 b-bodys on the ground I looked back to the girls May was wide awake shaking staring at the ground Athena was asleep in her chair I could tell she was physically okay though I spun myself to see behind me and saw Matt he saw I was awake and walked over I finally realized what was happening he was using me as bait for the girls and if they spoke up he would hurt them... he spoke to me like all my best friends weren't being held captive he raped me in that room in front of them. After a few hours of this he untied me. I asked about the girls a-and h-... he grabbed a knife, threw me on the ground and he s-slit Nya's throat. Something in me just switched I ripped the rope the held me grabbed a knife and stabbed him I found his phone and called 911 he was taken to the hospital along with me and all the girls obviously he was put in jail but N-Nya didn't make it Athena went into a coma for a day May had severe trauma she blocked everyone out for days like she wasn't in her own mind for almost 2 weeks I was left with the least seen pain but I had gone through almost a year of abuse and rape, I was not okay. When we were all out of the hospital we all stayed in Athena's studio apartment and while both girls were very quite and didn't do much of anything I went outside to cafes I seemed fine until everything hit me I was in the kitchen and something took over my body I took a knife and started cutting my legs and wrists and my stomach the girls took me to the hospital very quickly after and I was pretty much fine obviously the girls were constantly watching me we realized after anything to do with Matt happens I go through a strange state of mind where i like mask the pain until it breaks and it's hard to stop me. Everytime I see Matt or something to do with him that's what I do... I know the girls always say it's not my fault but I wish I had stabbed him sooner or didn't say anything until we left the room because I will always blame myself for Nya's death. Nya was my foster care sister when we were like 15 till 18 she left once she was 18 like me, I left her a letter with Athena's Address so she went there and we were all so close we were family