Moonlight Lead Me to You (kinnporsche)

chapter 6

After that night something changed between mile and apo.. they became more close.. , mile didnt push him away anymore , whatever happened between them . .. why Mile kissed his forehead.. apo didnt pay attention to it.. thinking he was vulnerable...

Until one night, apo was sleeping peacefully on his allotted couch suddenly he Heard Mile's voice , he woke up and went Near him who was sobbing and blabbering something in sleep, probably it was a nightmare, he shaked him and tried to wake him up

"Mile...Mile ... Wake up Mile .."

After several attempts he woke up .. he lifted his hand and touched apo's face , when he found it familiar "APo"...
" Yes mile ... It's me apo .. " he held his hand tightly..then sat down at the edge of bed , put Mile's head on his lap and started caressing his hairs to calm him down

" I am here Mile . .. you are not alone"

Mile was still sobbing, seeing him like this , apo couldn't control himself his heart was aching for the man infront of him the same man .. he wanted to kill some months ago, at that moment he was ready to fight anyone who was responsible for his tears...
After sometime when Mile calmed down... Apo tried to talk
" Do you wanna share something?" .. Mile held his hand which was caressing his hair and dragged it to his heart , ..
" I saw a nightmare and it's not the first time . .. i have seen same dream 3-4 time before,..

" What did you see? "
Mile left his hand and became silent.. then he took a long breathe and touched apo's face again to reassure himself that he can trust this man ...
"I saw my mom ..."
This time apo grabbed his hand and kissed the back of it , ...
"Some years ago my father was out of country and suddenly our house caught fire, our head bodyguard took out my brothers safely , only me, my mom and our driver were left stucked in the burning buliding..
(Kinn's voice was stuttering and tears were flowing from the corner of his eyes)

"I tried,... I tried very hard to save her ...My mom....Mom burnt infront of me..and i couldn't do anything, ... I was running towards her to save her.. but my driver caught me... And in attempt to save me... He cought fire.. because of me ... everything happened because of me.
Tears kept flowing,..." My mom left me"
" It was not your fault" apo wiped his tears who didn't even realise when he started crying himself

" My driver had a pregnant wife Who was in hospital because it was her labour time..when she heard the news she couldn't bear the loss of his husband and she passed away after giving birth to the child ... That new born baby became orphan because of me... I am a jinx i took his parents away "

" You are not a jinx .. stop calling yourself that .. nothing was in your hand..." ..

" You are saying this because you don't know me.you have such a pure soul "
When mile said that guilt risen up in apo's chest...so he changed the topic

" Where is that child ? " Apo already had some presumptions..
Mile pointed his finger ... Where he guessed Marwin was sleeping..
" Our winny?"
" Yess, at first dad didn't accept my decision to adopt him .. but i was determined that i will adopt him as my son" mile yawned as apo was caressing his hairs softly
" I think you should sleep now .. you need a rest" sudden mention of korn made him uneasy....

When Mile fell asleep he slowly put his head on pillow and kissed his forehead then he left the room...

He came out for the fresh air , he clutched the railing so hard and closed his eyes . .. Mile's crying face came infront of his eyes.. then he again started crying

" Why the fvck am i crying, why am I so weak for him , why can't I see his tears , why is my heart hurting like this .." he put his hand on heart

" That's what you wanted Porsche" his inner voice said...