I can't love him

chapter 10

Y/ns pov

I hate my life! After school we arrive home, Ash and Luke decided to come with me to the protst which is nice. I change into something else and i walk downstairs. "I am going to Luke his place!" I yell. Suddenly i hear someone almost crying. "Zayn it isn't healthy anymore. You need to get help. I can handle the kids besides i have Harry and Niall," Dad is leaving us? 

I decide to ignore it and Niall comes with me. He was with them in the room but he did hear me. I just pretend i didn't hear anything. "Come on!" I tell him. We leave and we protest until the cops arrive. I drag ash and Luke with me so i won't get caught again. 

We run away and we go to Nandos as i promised Niall. We order and I don't know what to think about the conversion dad had with Juliana. Me being alone with that whore? No thank you! 

"Y/n what's wrong?" Niall asks me. "Uh nothing just glad we got away from the cops," I say a bit doubting myself. "You don't doubt yourself ever so what's on your mind?" Ash asks. "I overheard them talking," I say looking down. "Shit," I hear Niall mumble. "Dad is gonna leave us with that whore isn't he?" i ask Niall pissed. 

I don't want dad to leave. "He is maybe getting help," Niall says. "We can help him. Dad can't just leave me with the pregnant lady! He can't do that!" I say a sad. "First off all she has a name, second off all, Y/n your dad needs the help. He barely eats and when he does he throw up a couple seconds later," Niall says. I know that! 

After we ate all our food we go home. Louis is sitting with dad, Juliana and Harry. "Thank you for coming back y/n. We need to talk," dad says. He points at the chair and i just sit on the ground so Niall can sit on the chair. He plays with my hair which is fine. 

"As you might know i don't eat a lot. I am going to see a doctor for that," he says. "It's anorexia," i mumble. "What?" Louis asks. "Dad has anorexia. One of the most known eating disorders. When he ate he throws up. He has a limit calories what he eats a day, probably under the 500 which isn't good. He thinks he is to fat and need to loose weight. In fact he is way to skinny but doesn't see it," I say. 

"How do you know?" dad asks. "If you cared for us you'd notice i am smarter then you think! I do Louis's homework and help him. I don't have any school and i was done with in 10 minutes of class," I say a bit annoyed. 

"We are gonna do an IQ test then cus that isn't normal," Juliana says. "I am not doing any fucking tests! I hate the fact i'll be alone with you!" I say now pissed. I never liked it when dad had to leave for work or something. I grab my stuff and go to my room. 

Today was just to much. First Noah, then the protst and now this. I walk to my bathroom and look in the mirror. I get super pissed somehow and slam the mirror. It breaks and my hand is bleeding. 

Niall burst through the door and I can't move my hand. "What the hell y/n!" he says grabbing my hand. "It is fine Niall," I say. He grabs the big peaces and throws them away. 

Zayns pov

We hear the mirror break and i am gonna let her do some test. Anger issues and how high her IQ is. Either she likes it or not! It is gonna happen. 

Niall comes downstairs with y/n and she is bleeding. "We need to go to the hospital!" Juliana says. "It is fucking fine!" Y/n says. I can hear she's in tons of pain but she hates the hospital. I get why, she had to go a lot. They even thought i abused her but that isn't true!

"Well suck for you y/n, we are gonna go either you like it!" i say a bit mad. I drive to the hospital and we wait for the results of the photo's they made.