I can't love him

chapter 16

Y/ns pov

Everyone walks out and i hold on tight to Niall. I am so scared she will hit me or something.

"I had a sister. She was your age and did the same stupid things, my dad was abusive and i hated him. My sister did too but she dealed with it differently, she became suicidal and then when she was your age and i was 18 i came home," i look at her to see her face. 

She's crying, well not crying but her eyes are teary. "I came home from school and she uh," she stops talking and looks down. I feel fucked up right now. "What did she do?" I ask already knowing.

"She uh.. sh-she ha-hang hers-herself," juliana starts to cry and i tell Niall to hug her. He goes to her and hugs her.

"I'm sorry i made it so hard on you," i say honestly feeling bad. "It's okay, thats what teenagers do. You think i made it easy for my moms 2th boyfriend?" I chuckle and smile. "I made it way worse then you do on me. I am not telling you what cus i know you'll use it against me but i was worse," i laugh.

"Can we start over y/n? I really love you both and i want you to like me just a little," i nod. "I am y/n ella Malik, i am 16 years old and i have a boyfriend who i love to have back now please," i say. I say with grabby hands which makes Niall giggle.

"I am Juliana, i am your dads girlfriend and pregnant by him. I promise you i will take care of him with my life," she says. Niall came next to me again. "Why are you here y/n?" She asks.

"I cut myself and i went a little to deep. I promise i wont do it again," i say. She gives me a weak smile. "I won't tell your dad but please tell him? I never saw Louis cry and he did. I don't think they can handle another dead kid or sibling,"

"I know. I feel really stupid going that deep. I honestly didn't mean that," juliana sighs. "Yesterday when i wanted to talk to you the results came back. You're not stupid. As the matter in fact you have an IQ of 150 which is rare. I know that it is weird but you're high gived," she says.

"Do i have angrer issues?" Is all i can ask. We all burst out laughing cus it isn't even an question anymore. "Yes but i said no to therapy. Al tho i start to doubt that," she says. "No i don't need therapy! I promise!" I say. She nods and then the others come back.

"I am high gifted," i tell louis. He smiles and jumps next to me. "I know. You can go off to college if you wanted that," he says. "I don't even know what i wanna become," i say. "I know. You'll figure out," he says.

"You wanna safe people right?" Juliana asks. "Yeah why?" I ask. "What if you go to an medical school so you can become an surgeon? With your IQ everyone wants you," i smile as Juliana says. "And you can always drop out if you want," juliana says. "I can try but i need a hospital that would want me as resident,"

"We still look for some. If you pass you can come here," my doctor says. "Really?" He nods and i smile. "So i can go to Louis class? My last year and go to medical school?" They nod and i get very excited.