Kiara Stark

Chapter 7

I sigh looking in the mirror... Her i am... Standing in a wedding dress... Over the last two weeks everything had gone mad... Steve and i got briefed on the mission... We were going to get married, and dad was going to give a press conference telling the world that Captain America chooses love over the Avengers... He was going to tell the world that because we fell in love, we both would no longer be part of the Avengers because it was against the rules... It was our punishment for hiding our relationship... It was bullshit... Nat and Bruce are dating... Vision and Wanda to... He was going to say that we would distance ourselves and find our own way... That he loved that i was happy but that we had broken rules and that even for Captain America and his daughter this had consequences... Meaning that we were on our own... That we were so in love that we were willing to pay that price.... That was going to be the gist of the message that would be brought into the world...

We were going to move in next to this black-market arms dealer and Steve who was going to play that he hated that he was dismissed that easily and wanted revenge... We were going to play the happy couple... So, in love that we walked away from it all... We were going to bet on the fact that the arms dealer could not resist having a super soldier on his team let alone a scorned one... A former Avenger... An Avenger holding a grudge against the people who think has wronged him and the woman he loves... 

It was ridiculous... I was sure it was not going to work... And insult to injury.... There was going to be a real wedding... I remember as if it was a second ago when Fury and dad told me the wedding was going to be real... That they didn't have the time to falsify the documents in a way it would look real... I had flipped out and walked out... I had gone away for a few days as i did not want this... But while i still held on to the fact i didn't want to ruin my career i came back... But as time progressed i started to feel more and more that i wanted to walk away from it all... But Fury made it known that i had agreed... Made a commitment and he would write me up for insubordination which could make me end up in jail...

I did not want my first wedding to be a fake one... I hated it... I hated that i was standing here in the most beautiful dress... That they had pulled out all the stops to make it a big event... To make it believable and that when the arms dealer started to dig, he would not find anything fishy with our marriage license... I didn't want my first marriage to be fake... I never said it out loud but i always dreamed of my wedding day... But i never thought it would be fake... 

I didn't want this but i felt like i had no choice... It was either do this or resign and possibly go to jail... I didn't even think it was worth the renovation of my room... I remember crying to my dad to please stop this... That i didn't want this but he just kept saying that this was the only way and that the guy was a really bad one... I was conflicted because i didn't want to throw everything away that i had worked so hard for... I hated my dad for going along with this so easily... I had locked myself away in my room over the last few days not wanting to talk to anyone and i had barely eaten anything... I didn't want to do this and i hated everyone involved for it... Even myself... The thought of just quitting came to mind more and more consequences be damned...

But now i was here... Standing in front of the mirror all dolled up for a fake real wedding... I couldn't cry because i would ruin the makeup... I had to put up a front that it was the best day of my life... I had to get married for God knows how long and pretend that this was his goodbye gift... My wedding would be the last time we have contact this was supposedly his farewell gift... That no matter how much he loved me he could not be on board with this and that this was the last thing he would do for us... It felt so wrong... 

How was i ever going to explain the fact that i got fake real married to Steve for a mission and have my future partner think i would take marriage seriously... Maybe i should just run away... Go on the run... When i joined Shield and the Avengers i never would have imagined i would have to do this... Fury had told me i could have my pick of assignments after this but as i was standing here i had decided that after this there would not be more assignments... I didn't even want to be part of the Avengers after this... I felt trapped and unhappy...

The others kept trying to tell me that it was going to be a good thing when we finally got this man off the street... That so many lives would be saved because we would shut him down and lock him away... But it didn't help... It only made me firmer in my decision to walk away from it all... The only thing i was still undecided on was going through with this...

There was a knock on the door and i sigh not answering... Another knock on the door and my dad walks in and he smiles while i sigh... "Wauw... You look amazing pumpkin..." He says and i just shake my head... "Stop it... I dont want to hear it..." I mumble and sigh... 

"Pumpkin... I know you are not happy right now... And it breaks my heart but..." He starts to say but i hold up my hand because i hate him right now... I hate him for not having my back and putting a stop to this... That he takes this all so lightly... 

"Stop with your bullshit dad... Dont pretend to care how i feel right now... Because you dont... But dont worry i will do this... I am a woman of my word... I agreed to this... I will let myself be married off for some stupid mission... But i will never forgive you for not having my back... For taking a special moment from me..." I say fighting my tears...

"You and Fury can go to hell... I hate you... I hate Fury... But most of all i hate myself for agreeing to this in the first place... God all i want is to walk away from this all... I hate you guys for rushing into this and having me marry Steve for real... That was not what i agreed to... But get now forced into... I could walk away now and quit... I dont even know why i am doing this... But after this i am done... After today i will never come back to this place... So dont bother with redoing my room... I will never come back to it... I just hope it will be worth losing your daughter over... Because when i walk out the door i will no longer be your daughter..." I say hissing at him, and dad looks at me shocked... "Pumpkin... Dont say that... You dont mean it..." He whispers and i shake my head... 

"I mean it... With every fiber in my being... I hate you..." I say and dad sighs... "Now let's get this damn show on the road and get it over with so i can get out of this dress and get away from you..." I mumble and he looks at me with a sad look on his face but i dont care... What he is feeling is nothing compared to how i am feeling right now... Yes, it was going to be hard to walk away from everything i had worked so hard for but i had my limits... And this was it...