Kiara Stark

Chapter 9

"I... Do..." I say and i put the ring around Steve his finger... I hadn't even noticed Nat handing it to me as i was in a daze... I look at the big rock around my own finger where the wedding band had been added... I hadn't even noticed Steve putting it on my finger... 

Steve gives me another reassuring smile as i fight to keep my composure... The dress seems to be getting tighter and it is getting harder to breathe... It feels like someone is still pulling on the corset making it cut off my air supply... 

"I know pronounce you husband and wife... You may kiss the bride..." The officiant says and Steve cups my face with one of his big strong hands and leans in and kisses me... It is a sweet kiss and when we break the kiss, we lean our foreheads together... "Please get me out of here..." I whisper as the anxiety that had disappeared for a second while he kissed me, comes back hitting me like a brick in the face... As the crowd cheers... It is like the walls are closing in and the noise is deafening... All i can is focus on is the noise and i feel a panic attack coming up... "Please Steve... Please get me out of here..." I plead and he nods taking my hand and walking me back down the aisle while people keep clapping and cheering thinking this is the happiest day of our lives... Meanwhile i keep finding it harder to breathe and to walk and Steve wraps an arm around my waist holding me up... "It is going to be okay sweetheart..." He whispers in my ear kissing my temple... I try my best to keep on a happy front plastering a fake smile on my face not knowing how long i could keep up the facade...  

We walk down the aisle and as soon as the big doors close behind us i start to panic and lose my footing my legs not able to be holding me up anymore... Without saying a word Steve picks me up ironically in bridal style and walks me too the room i had gotten ready in... I am still having trouble breathing as he closes the door behind me and puts me down on my feet...

"Please get it off... Get it off... Get it off..." I say panicking trying desperately to open my dress... Due to me panicking i get nowhere... Steve doesn't hesitate and starts to pull on the strings of the corset loosening it and the dress falls to the floor... I am standing there in just my panties but i dont care i can finally breathe... But as i finally can breathe again i start to sob and sink down to my knees... 

Steve sits down on his knees in front of me and pulls me in his arms... I dont know why but i let him... I sob in his arms as he rubs my naked back... "It is going to be okay... I promise..." He whispers in my ear and i stop crying and lift my head and look at him through my tears... He looks like he is in pain and suddenly it hits me... No matter if it is fake or not to have someone be so in tears because she has to marry you must not be a great feeling... I dont know why i do it but i cup his face and press my lips on his... "Sorry it is not personal..." I whisper and lean my forehead against his and he sighs... "It is not?" He asks confused taking in a sharp breath and i chuckle because i know how ridiculous i sound after everything that happened between us... 

"No... It is the fact i had no choice... That it was either do this or basically go to jail..." I murmur and i can feel Steve tense up... "Excuse me what?" He asks and i look up and all i can see is horror in his eyes... "Kiara what do you mean either this or jail..." He says and i look at him confused... I was so sure he knew... "Fury said if i didn't do this he would report me for insubordination and that could result in me going to jail..." I whisper so soft it is barely audible...

I can see Steve tense up and he lets out a massive sigh wrapping me in his arms again holding me tight... "I am so sorry... I... I did not know... They said you were on board..." He whispers kisses the top of my head and i dont know why but i look up again and kiss him... I dont know why but it is the only comfort i can find... In his arms and his lips on mine... "I was... Until they told me that i had to marry you for real that it was going to be for real... I always thought if i would get married it was because of love... I wanted my wedding to be real... Not something forced for a mission... It is not personal... Please i promise it is not because it is you... Maybe that is the only thing that makes this day..." I was saying crying wanting him to know it was not because of him... Somehow desperate for him to know that... but i couldn't finish the sentence...

All of a sudden, the door swings open... "What the fuck!" I hear my dad yell and i suddenly become more aware about the fact that i am only wearing panties... Steve wants to let me go but i grab his uniform shaking my head holding him close... "Get out..." I growl... "Kiara what the fuck is this..." My dad yells and i chuckle... "What is this? This is me having a private moment with my new husband..." I say and start to laugh and Steve smirks at my reaction... Steve reaches for my robe laying on the chair nearby and i look up and smile at him as he wraps it around me with care and so gentle... I can now stand up and no longer be naked.  Steve stands up and holds out his hand for me to stand up and Steve smiles as we both ignore my dad who is yelling at us... He ties the ribbon of my robe and i turn around at my father who looks like he is about to have a stroke... 

"I told you no fooling around with Avengers... What the hell are you doing... This has not changed that rule..." Dad growls... I scoff... "No fooling around... But you have no problem marrying my off... We'll let me tell you this... Dad... You have no say in it anymore... Officially i am married... Steve is my husband now... You can't tell me what i can and cannot do with my husband... Oh no i am not going to fool around with my husband... I am going to let him rail me... Let him do with me whatever he pleases... I am going to let him fuck my brains out... Just like he did at the little test mission you and Fury set up... You know the mission you hated for me to go on... But secretly had it all planned out with Fury... God, he railed me so good that I begged for more..." I say stepping closer to him the absolute horror on his face is what i need right now to get through the day... 

"So, if you dont mind... father... I need a moment to get changed into the dress for the party and i would like my... husband... To help me with that and then tonight after the party... I am going to let him have me as the good wife i am... I have to play the part right... right? I mean what must people think if i would not satisfy my newly husband urges..." I growl and i can feel Steve behind me placing his hands on my upper arms gently pulling me against him... "I think it is better if you leave Tony... Or should i say... Dad..." Steve says and i can feel him smirk as he kisses the top of my head... 

Dad just looks at me in horror for the first time speechless... I decide it has not been enough and to go in for the kill... The final blow... "You know that after that mission i was an ass to Steve... Only because of my guilt towards you... Only because of the promise i made you... Putting my own potential happiness aside because you would not approve... But now... Now i no longer have to think about your feelings and your rules dont apply anymore... I am after all no longer a Stark... So, thank you... I am finally free... Free to admit to myself and to Steve that i love him to..." I say and look up at Steve... Steve smiles as he turns me facing him and kisses me cupping my face and as we break the kiss, we stare in each other's eyes as he rubs his thumb over my cheek... 

"You better leave Tony... I need a moment with my beautiful wife and i dont think you want to see that... We will see you at the party after i helped her get dressed..." Steve says never breaking eye contact with me and i still smile as a wave of calm washes over me... I can hear dad scoff and i jump a little as the door slams shut but we are still looking at each other and i wonder what he is going to do now that dad is gone... I dont know but finally saying out loud that i liked Steve more than i liked to admit to myself before had made me feel lighter... But now i was scared... Would Steve reject me... But instead, he smiles and leans down and kisses me passionately but so soft and gentle... "Finally..." He whispers and i smile into the kiss...