Kiara Stark

Chapter 8

I am waiting to walk down the aisle with dad trying to talk to me... Trying to change my mind about never coming back here but i tune it out... I feel numb... I feel like a piece of property like i am being traded off...

I can hear the music start and dad takes my arm smiling... "At least i can walk you down the aisle..." He whispers and i sigh... "Enjoy it while you can... Because this will be the last time you will walk me down the aisle... After this mission we are done, and you will never see me again... If i ever get married again you will not be there... You will never know any kids i might have and i will never ever help you with anything ever again... This is all so fucked up and i cant still not believe you took Fury's side..." I growl before putting a fake smile on my face as we start to walk down the aisle... 

People are smiling the only ones knowing that this is not real are the Avengers... The rest believes this is a modern fairytale... The ultimate sign that the hatched is being buried between Captain America and Iron man after the whole civil war thing... Only to have the shock of their lives when dad is holding the press conference... 

I look down the aisle and see Steve in his uniform waiting for me and for a moment i think he is nervous... Bucky is standing behind him as he best man... Nat is my maid of honor... Something i have wanted ever since we became friends but now that was tainted to... This could have been my dream wedding... But everything was tainted... Nat would never be my maid of honor for real... It would only remind me of this day... They are all playing their roles perfectly... Bucky grins patting Steve's shoulder as if to say you're a lucky man... Dad is acting emotional but not because i am getting married but the fact he lost me... Nat is smiling standing in a bridesmaid dress... I couldn't stand her right now... Because after crying in my room for 3 days she barged in and told me to get over it... That it was not the end of the world and to stop whining... To just take one for the team... I wondered if she even knew the marriage license was real... But it is Nat of course she knows...   

I even got flowers... My favorites... that now are no longer my favorites... The princess dress i am wearing and always had dreamed off feels now like a strait jacket... Everything i ever wanted now ruined... 

We reach the altar and dad hesitates for a minute as Steve reaches out for me and everyone chuckles thinking it is a father scared to be handing his precious daughter off into the care of another man... But it is because he knows as soon as Steve takes my hand it is done, and he lost his daughter not to her husband or the love of her live but to a mission an arms dealer... Because that is what they will be getting in return... An arms dealer... I just hope he finds it worth it...

Steve takes my hand and smiles at me, but the smile doesn't reach his eyes... He looks nervous and not comfortable at all... Yes, he said he loved me but maybe this is even a step to far for him... Maybe they haven't given him a choice either... "You look beautiful..." He whispers kissing my hand and to my surprise he means it... I can't detect any hint of deception... "Thank you..." I whisper and he gives me a small smile... He leans in and kisses my cheek making all the guest aaahw... "I am sorry..." He whispers and i look at him when he pulls back, and he seems sincere... 

Then the officiant starts his bit... The officiant who thinks it is all real... Just like all the other attendees he thinks it is real... I look at Steve and i must admit he looks handsome in his uniform... Attraction has never been the issue between him and i... He would not have fucked me if he didn't at least was attracted to me... Or maybe he was just really turned on by my defiance of him... Maybe that was his kink... 

I hear my name being called and i snap out of my nerves and thoughts and look at Steve as he is holding my hand... "I do..." Steve says giving me a small reassuring smile again... "Do you Kaira Antoinette Stark take as your lawfully wedded husband Captain Steven Grant Rogers..." The officiant asks and i feel like i can breathe but i have to say i do... I have to say i do and push down my emotions and just say it... I do... It is not that hard... I do just two words but i can't seem to get it out of my mouth... I know it is only a few seconds, but it feels like hours... My mind is spinning... My heart is raising and i feel sick... And after is say i do i have to kiss him and make it believable and although i have kissed him before... I dont know what to think about it... I am scared and start to feel dizzy... 

I feel overwhelmed with all the people staring at me... The pressure is immense and i can't seem to get the words out it is like i lost the ability to speak... I look at Steve who looks back at me worried... He squeezes my hand slightly and starts to rub circles with his thumb as if he is comforting me... I know i am taking too long i have to speak now... I have to say it now... I do... Just two words i said them in my head a hundred times than why can't i say them out loud...

"I..."