Chuuya pov.
June 17
5:45 PM
At evening sunset
I walking down on a road . I was smiling while looking at the sun that go down into the see .
It's been 20 months
Since he left,
this is the third time I have walked alone on this road that we used to walk together .
Although I didn't cry like before
I missing the times that you held my
hand and joking me.
~ flash back ~
" Oi Chuuya Chuuya Chuuuuya
look at me! hmmm... Don't be mad anymore.If you want to punch me, punch me But don't stay like this "
Dazai said with puppy eyes .
But I still stay silent
" I went there with Oda and Ango
and You are on a mission So I did'nt call your phone "
"Whatever you should send a message to me "
" Gomen Chuuya "
Shit! I can't mad at his puppy face .
I start smiling and keep walking.
But he stop walking
So I look back to him.
Suddenly he hugged me and kissed me.
" You are more beautiful than sunset Chuuya "
I rolled my eyes and kissed him .
Sunsets are sweet because of his kisses .
~Flash back end~
I walked quickly and came to my house we used to live together.
I unlocked the door I entered the house When I turned on the light, I saw a picture of us
On the wall.
I looked into the kitchen. I was hoping that there would be a lot of bottle of Sake.
The bouquet of red roses you gave me on my birthday. The teddy bear we bought together and I also saw your old bandage on the couch.
~Flash Back ~
We were sitting on the couch
and I pulled off the bandage on his
wrist .
" Dazai Why you wanna do Suićíde?"
" Cause I thought I had no reason to live.... But from the day I met you, I didn't want to die anymore .
I see the colours of life because of you Chuuya . "
" You flity ass , you should have died before you met me "
" If I had died, you would be alone now"
" Whatever.... Dazai "
" hmm?"
" I saw the love because of you too"
He huged me and kissed my forehead
" I love you soo much Chuuuya "
" I love you too Dazai "
" I' think I can't live without you
Chuuya. If you leave me I'll ... "
I put my finger on his lip and said
" I'll never leave you Dazai
you don't need to say "
" promise?"
" omm "
~ flash back end ~
You said You can't live without me
How are you now ?
I though I would go crazy without you. I did'nt go crazy, but I can't forget you .
I took the teddy bear and entered the bedroom . My blankets are not messy. Now I'm sure you didn't come. You never keep the blankets tidy.
Dazai, I didn't even change the password so that you could come here whenever you like.
Of course, Why do you have to come here? You are already happy in the light.
" The Detective Dazai Osamu "
" Bullshit "
I throw the teddy bear in your place and I changed my cloth to pajamas
Then I lied down on the bed
" I can still feel your scent on your Pillow.. Dazai "
I kissed it .
Ahhh Shit! I miss you Dazai
I miss you. Where are you now?
Do you already love Odasaku more than me?
As long as the boss doesn't call me I thought I wouldn't come back to Youkohama But on your birthday, I want to be in this house, Dazai
I regret now....
I should'nt let you go...
