𝓞𝓾𝓻 𝓓𝓮𝓪𝓭𝓵𝔂 𝓟𝓪𝓼𝓼𝓲𝓸𝓷 (𝓑𝓦𝓦𝓜)

Idenity Change

𝓡𝓪𝓿𝓮𝓷 𝓟𝓸𝓿

This happy family act has become unbearable to me.

She's driving me insane and this kid is so clingy that it makes my skin crawl.

August still hasn't met up with the person Khalida and I both desire most. This is taking too long.

Perhaps we should expedite the process. One important aspect about me and Khalida is that we are completely distinct individuals. Many individuals struggle to distinguish between Loli and Khalida due to their similar behavior, although Loli is even more unpredictable and significantly more childish. Khalida, on the other hand, embodies the qualities of a successful businesswoman as she is assertive and decisive without any doubts or disputes. As for myself, I could be described as a chaotic void that instills feelings of mental instability. What perturbs Khalida is the realization that both of us lack limitations and are selfish when it comes to our own interests.

There is an ongoing battle for dominance taking place within our minds, as we constantly strive to determine who will emerge victorious. This battle exhausts us both to the point where we can only lie in bed, and it transforms into our depression. My mind feels like it is in a perpetual state of overwhelming intensity, which inhibits my ability to simply survive. A moment of silence leads me to descend further into a deep abyss of negative thoughts, which weigh heavily upon my body, making it feel burdened.

Today, we have not mustered the energy to get out of bed. It's not that we lack the desire to do so; my body simply feels too heavy. Therefore, we remain in bed while August and Zion attempts to motivate me. Unfortunately, I am unable to take any action. Although I should feel guilty about my inactivity, I currently experience a sense of emptiness. I have made attempts to rise, but I lack the motivation to do so, ultimately leading me to choose inaction. I feel sorry for August, who initially paced back and forth in the room, and for Zion, who cried to the extent that rosemary had to attend to him.

𝓡𝓪𝓿𝓮𝓷 𝓘 𝓱𝓪𝓿𝓮 𝓽𝓸 𝓰𝓮𝓽 𝓾𝓹

𝓢𝓸 𝓰𝓮𝓽 𝓾𝓹 𝔀𝓱𝓪𝓽'𝓼 𝓼𝓽𝓸𝓹𝓹𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝔂𝓸𝓾

𝓨𝓸𝓾 𝓴𝓷𝓸𝔀 𝔀𝓱𝓪𝓽'𝓼 𝓼𝓽𝓸𝓹𝓹𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓶𝓮

𝓘 𝓭𝓸 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝔂𝓸𝓾𝓻 𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓼𝓸𝓷 𝓷𝓮𝓿𝓮𝓻 𝓬𝓱𝓪𝓷𝓰𝓮

𝓔𝔁𝓪𝓬𝓽𝓵𝔂 𝓼𝓸 𝓵𝓮𝓽𝓼 𝓼𝓽𝓸𝓹 𝓹𝓵𝓪𝔂𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓰𝓪𝓶𝓮𝓼

𝓚𝓱𝓪𝓵𝓲𝓭𝓪 𝓦𝓮 𝓫𝓸𝓽𝓱 𝓴𝓷𝓸𝔀 𝓘 𝓭𝓸𝓷'𝓽 𝓵𝓲𝓴𝓮 𝓰𝓪𝓶𝓮𝓼

𝓸𝓴𝓪𝔂 𝓫𝓾𝓽 𝔀𝓮'𝓻𝓮 𝓶𝓪𝓴𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓐𝓾𝓰𝓾𝓼𝓽 𝔀𝓸𝓻𝓻𝔂 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝔃𝓲𝓸𝓷 𝓬𝓻𝓲𝓮𝓭

𝓢𝓸 𝔂𝓸𝓾'𝓻𝓮 𝓽𝓮𝓵𝓵𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓶𝓮 𝔂𝓸𝓾'𝓵𝓵 𝓽𝓻𝔂 𝓯𝓸𝓻 𝓽𝓱𝓮𝓶 𝓫𝓾𝓽 𝓷𝓸𝓽 𝔂𝓸𝓾𝓼𝓮𝓵𝓯 𝔀𝓱𝔂

𝓡𝓪𝓿𝓮𝓷 𝓳𝓾𝓼𝓽 𝓰𝓲𝓿𝓮 𝓾𝓹 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓼𝔀𝓲𝓽𝓬𝓱 𝓪𝓵𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓭𝔂

𝓨𝓸𝓾 𝓬𝓪𝓷'𝓽 𝓫𝓮 𝓱𝓾𝓶𝓪𝓷 𝔀𝓲𝓽𝓱𝓸𝓾𝓽 𝓪𝓷𝔂 𝓹𝓪𝓲𝓷 𝓴𝓱𝓪𝓵𝓲𝓭𝓪 𝓽𝓱𝓪𝓽'𝓼 𝓷𝓸𝓽 𝓱𝓸𝔀 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝔀𝓸𝓻𝓵𝓭 𝔀𝓸𝓻𝓴𝓼. 𝓣𝓱𝓮 𝓬𝓱𝓸𝓲𝓬𝓮 𝓲𝓼 𝔂𝓸𝓾𝓻𝓼 𝔀𝓸𝓾𝓵𝓭 𝔂𝓸𝓾 𝓬𝓪𝓾𝓼𝓮 𝓸𝓽𝓱𝓮𝓻𝓼 𝓹𝓪𝓲𝓷 𝓯𝓸𝓻 𝓽𝓱𝓮𝓲𝓻 𝓼𝓪𝓴𝓮? 𝓐𝓷𝓭 𝓗𝓸𝔀 𝓶𝓾𝓬𝓱 𝓽𝓻𝓰𝓮𝓭𝔂 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓹𝓪𝓲𝓷 𝓬𝓪𝓷 𝔂𝓸𝓾 𝓬𝓪𝓾𝓼𝓮 𝓫𝓮𝓯𝓸𝓻𝓮 𝓲𝓽 𝓬𝓸𝓶𝓮𝓼 𝓫𝓪𝓬𝓴 𝓽𝓸 𝔂𝓸𝓾 𝓪𝓼 𝓴𝓪𝓻𝓶𝓪.