Back Then

chapter 5

It was already night and I was  frightened to death . Where is he ? Literally a thousand horrible thoughts bypassed my brain . To stop myself from worrying, the only good thing i could do was to freeze my head . The yellow bloodless faces of Tina and Jake were adding little more to my uncertain stress.

We stood hopelessly in front of the office , everything around the office remaining uninterrupted, after a few seconds while we entered in only to feel the air of oblivion , the thoughts inside my head really started twisting. We walked in , inhaling the mysterious air into the perpetual darkness , there's no sign of anything unusual until we get the lights,an open drawer with too many letters kept at one of the corners , an uncanny atmosphere making everything further induced  . We looked each other , our perplexed minds fighting with the inability to think and reason, all we had were urge to rush towards anywhere in search of Ross .

All of a sudden Jake uttered ,
"Why don't we kinda open .... Hmmm"

We felt hard to converse with each other for no reason, maybe the reluctance out of fear and anxiety kind of giving us a difficulty to communicate .

" Say less .... How come we didn't get to cops before it is running late ... I donnooo .. huhhh.. "

Tina implied .

I stood like a heap of hay , inanimate. Jake looked into my eyes before dialing,

" I'm Jake Wilson from street 11 , our brother Ross Wilson is missing since evening , before filing a case can we know till when is station... uhhhh... "

"Anytime you come ... Make it fast , Ross Wilson? The lawyer? "

"Yea he is.. "

"Make it before eleven, be fast .... Stay safe Jake ! "

Tina came closer and hugged me from back , " Where's he , I can't hold on sandss , he just called me a day ago "

She is so vulnerable at times , I couldn't resist her flooding in tears , huge apparent numbness in my throat put me into a temporary arrest from reality . Being a bad time to escape space into the delusional world, I realised I have to keep myself conscious and awake atleast for few hours . I hurriedly searched in pockets , opened the chewing gum and started chewing harshly.

Jake hustled to open one of letter on top with an exceptionally different stamp , not so common in Lose Angeles. It looked specially tailored ,put in an old cover in a long cloudy white sheets written in a black inked fountain pen. It looked royal in an odd way , seems like anything we notice right now look suspicious since our state of minds were experiencing a new shift . Jake took it right away and we rushed to station since there's no sign of Ross and it's almost eleven .

We reached out , filed a case and turned to open the letter , before unveiling the white sheet we looked each other confused, we don't know what is this about but the letters in his office, specially this one looks really sceptical . We sat in the back seat of car with Jake in middle opening the letter . We are all sweating bad and dazed to begin with ,

To

Ross Wilson
Street 5
The Lawyer's Lounge '2

Hey ,

The red roses
The deeper thorns
The cuts you see
Aren't they from beauty?
You adore?
You sit back and laugh?

So is my life . To say this isn't personal is a crime . Ross Wilson, my biggest hunt was for you. You did bad by pricking into my throne and now that the cut is seeking mercy and... me ? How can I not revenge when I'm the prime on the seat ? Any offers , any gifts you accept or reject be there like poison to quench your internal thirst to put me on light.

Aren't you day dreaming like a little squirrel, not every nuts you cracks are full enough to feed you little boy. And what is waiting for you ? Huh ?

Before I come , be there on peace , there's no hate , there's no love , this is a man's talk , a serious one , we'll lead and make sure there's no bad blood . But anything I say at end would be the final command or else you'll pay .

How many red flags have you seen ? How many times do you blink when panicked? You ever count? But I count. I count any steps I sense . Before you mess let me put it into your mind , and never ever try to pull the worst . Bad for you and bad for anyone.

There are black palaces , the flowers are blue and snakes are pink and you still think life is straight without illusions, without those scary midnight violin notes ?
The lights which enlighten the path you went as you think... What colour are they ?

Before letting you live in the depth of my insane lines ,in my beautiful poems of love, hate and rage ,live this life to fullest and never ever try to move a hand . The court is final , the law is final but few things aren't .

Hopefully

Me .

Did I just read anything abnormal . Three of us were still into it not being able to merge out from the hypnotic words . Who is he ?

Jake looked pale , agitated by shock , so was  Tina. I was frozen as if my heart is stabbed from back , unexpectedly frazzled. Ross , he is a great human , he'll never go against his rule , the man of word and the biggest gift I recieved from dad . He is a persevering man. I trust him . I have been there at his office but never knew he was surfing through all this catastrophe .

Cops already started investigation. Lana is informed. Me , Jake and Tina promised to keep this a secret as the contents seem strangely weird and anything made public could harm our brother in anyways and we are never letting to .

But will anyone normal write such a dramatic letter ?
That too to a lawyer ?

We were driving back home , almost caught in the loop of mysteries we never knew about Ross's life . After reaching Jake's home deciding to stay there we let ourselves give a rest . Ross , hmm yes , we tried and will be trying even more . How long are we subjected to drink this alphabet soup and will it ever digest? . The life is offering sour, even without accepting, it is heedlessly handed over . I almost finished a dozen of gums and gladly I can say I haven't stepped into the delusional world since yesterday, I know I'm chewing alot than normal yet I consider it a good idea . Even if it is a grim situation , I'm hopefully trying not to get back on anything from past , especially drugs. I took a light bath , a traumatic one where I didn't feel any water touching my light hued skin , those hypnotical lines were holding me back, the writer for sure trying to divulge some dark secrets through , but why is me getting kind of brain fogged ? Is it just me being vain or ...

I don't know I finished bathing and put on one of Jake's oversized black tees. After drinking a glass of water I tried closing my eyes without bothering on what step we have to pull for morning. Hmm.