Next day
Nialls pov
We eat breakfast and its a bit silence between us. Everyone around us is whispering about yesterday. I am not feelling well but i don't really care.
In 3 weeks it's family day so the family comes around then. I am so excited for that! I mean i really miss everyone home. The people i hang out with are amazing people but they don't understand me like anyone home. I just take small bites again.
"Which was the worst of all?" Aivy asks. At first i don't understand but then i realize what she means. "The part where you forget who everyone is and when they try to safe you, you just try to kill them,"
I start to scratch my wounds so they open. "Don't," mason says. I look down and see i am bleeding. Fuck! I grab something and put it on the wound so no one else sees but the nurse already did.
She walks to the hospital wing with me. Okay maybe the plus side is that i couldn't eat. They do bandage over my wrist and matheo walks in.
"You okay kid?" He asks. I nod cus i am not. I wanna end it all right here right now. "Okay, all nurse out we are gonna have a therapy session right here," matheo says.
I look at him confused. "I don't have a therapy till next week," i say. "Well you scratched your wound open. So it needs to happen," he says with a sorry smile.
"When did you became suicidal?" He asks. "When i was in middle school was the first time i cut myself. My brothers and his friends were these people that everyone wanted to hang out with. In breaks they made me sit with them cus they're very protective over me. Some of their friends like harry and Liam were really nice to me also when i was alone with them but some just pretended and called me names when my brothers weren't around," i explain.
"Do you still remember what they said?" Matheo asks. "Fat, that i don't deserve brothers like them, that i should be dead, little piggy and fat ass," i say. "They're older right? Your brothers?" I nod. "What was it like when they left middle school?" He asks. "It suck bad. Thats the first time i think,"
I am to open! Why am i this open? He is definitely gonna judge me! Damn Niall! "Okay, and then you went to high school right? Did the bullying continue?" He asks. "Uh yeah. It was worse tho, they started to kick me and stuff. I just stopped eating. Then Hydra got us and i forgot everything but they abused me when the others failed," i say.
"Was it hard for them?" I nod. He smiles and wrote everything down. "Go back to the breakfast hall," he says. Fuck! I go back and the others are still here. That's nice of them.
