The Reason Why

Chapter 9

Chapter 9: Birthday

SANA'S POV

My singularity felt it with you.

"AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!" I screamed into the pillow I was hugging. I couldn't forget what happened last night. And I couldn't even get any sleep.

After he said those words, I just had to excuse myself for the night because I don't know how to react but when I was already inside the dorm, I shouted in tingles. And the other members were again mad at me.

So here I am, 5 in the morning. I woke up this early for the first time and continued the failed self-celebration last night.

"Yah! We'll let you off for now because it's your birthday!" That was Jeongyeon unnie.

"What's happening with her?"

"Someone must be in love."

I heard them talk about me as if I'm not in the room. But I didn't care. I'm just so freaking happy!

"What happened, Sana?" Jeongyeon unnie elbowed me. She sat on my bed and stared at me with her pretty eyes. "I hope it's not about Taehyung confessing to you because you just said he's into Lisa. That's freaking stupid. Maybe, he's just playing or what!"

And my late celebration was again cut into a stop. I then remembered what I said about me being an option. And I hate it! My happy thoughts were changed into a nightmare.

"Hey, did I say something wrong?" Jeongyeon unnie must have noticed my horrible face.

"N-no." I stuttered. "I'm fine." Grinning I stood up and got ready for a bath.

But when I was showering, my chest felt tight and heavy again. It's my birthday but I'm crying. Not in happiness, but in pain. Last night, I felt euphoric. The feelings were not like before I was crushing on Taehyung. It was even stronger, more vocal, and better. But it all vanished with just a 'maybe'.

Maybe it's true.

Maybe he likes me in a way because I've been with him.

Maybe he just likes my presence.

Maybe he sees my friend in me?

And the more I think about it, the more my heart breaks.

It was already 7 am when the members surprised me with gifts and a good breakfast. Because of them, I kinda forgot him. As I looked at their smiling faces, I realized I shouldn't be sad on this day of my life. It's the day I was born! I shouldn't settle for something negative!

Channie:
Happy birthday, noona!

I've received a lot of greetings from all of my friends as well. Replying to them thanks, I checked the time on the wall clock.

8 A.M.

"I gotta go!"

"Wait, where?"

"I've already asked permission from our manager, Ji! Don't worry."

"Still, where?" Jihyo placed her hands on her waist. I pouted as I went close to her and hugged her.

"I'll see someone." I whispered.

"Okay. Please remind Taehyung-ssi that you should be home before dinner. The white sugar suggested that we'll celebrate your birthdays together tonight."

"Eh?"

"You heard me. Now go. Enjoy!" She pushed me out of our dorm.

I straightened out my chic trench coat and went out of our dorm, determined. Yes, I'm going to meet him. He asked me to go out last night in a hurry. And of course, I couldn't say no. I was ecstatic that night. It was hard to neglect that blessing. But now, it might be a curse.