What is love?

Moving on

I end up staying the night at Jaz's after ringing her just to talk, and she insisted that I came over. I try to put on a brave face but I can't.  It's too difficult. She opens the door and I burst into tears and spend ages just crying into her shoulder until I finally tell her I am going to go to sleep. She sets up the sofa bed for me and I try to fall asleep. I do eventually and I wake up around 11 the next morning, Jaz is already up, making breakfast. I sit down in silence and eat it. When conversation starts she brings up the subject of what I am going to do for today. I just shrug my shoulders,

 

“I will probably go back to get my stuff”, she looks up,

 

“What, so that's it? You are just going to leave him, them, as though it never happened?”, I sigh,

“Well, I can't exactly just go back to how it was can I? He hurt me Jaz, and I hurt him too. I . . .I just can't”, I try my hardest to hold back the tears, but they push their way through and begin to pour rapidly. She gives me a sympathetic look, walking over and pulling me into a hug,

“You are staying with me, okay, get your stuff today and come and stay with me for a bit. It's not a question. C'mon, lets get ready and we will go there together”, I smile at her orders and do as I am told.

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I take a deep breath as I get to the front door, considering whether i have the guts to do it, but realising i have to. I don't use the key, but decide to knock instead. I wait patiently and a few seconds later, Louis answers the door,

 

“Oh, Evie, . . . Hi, are you okay?” he looks concerned, I shake my head and shrug my shoulders a little,

 

“Not really, no, but I've come to get my stuff, that's all” he nods, and lets us both in. Niall is on the laptop in the lounge and Liam and Zayn are watching t.v. They smile at me when I walk in, but it doesn't reach their eyes. Just then Harry walks out of the kitchen, he sees me and runs over to me,

 

“Evie, oh my God, I am so sorry, please forgive me, I was so drunk you don't even know, please, I never meant to hurt you”, he goes to grab my hand but I pull away,

 

“I've come to get my things, Harry, nothing else” he looks so disappointed. I go into the bedroom and quickly get my things, I don't want to have to stay here any longer than needs be. I go into the bathroom and get my things in there, then back out into the living room.

 

“Please don't go, Evie, please, don't leave me” Harry begs.

 

“I can't, Harry, I just can't. I hurt you and you hurt me too much to just carry on like nothing has happened” I walk over to Jaz who is stood waiting by the door, I see her gazing at Liam out of the corner of her eye and hide a smile. Harry runs over to me and spins me around, he kisses me, but I pull away, I can't kiss him, I can't fall any more than I already have, he hugs me tight as if he would never let go,

 

“Please baby, I can't go without you”, I pull away from his grasp once more. The other boys come over to me and hug me one last time. It gets to Zayn and he hesitates, glancing over at Harry.

 

“It doesn't matter now, Zayn, just hug me” I say plainly, seeing Harry's face screw up as he hugs me and then head for the door.