•I Can Fix It•

•My Choice•

Last night was..nice? Maybe Yelena thought so too? I don't know. All I knew was we slept together, stayed in the same bed, and somehow ended up unclothed.
I laid in silence as she slept. I wasn't really sure how to feel..I just had sex with the woman who I left in pieces. I'm pretty sure Amelia, Lance, Ben and Maya were having a good laugh about it.
After awhile of contemplating and drowning myself in my own thoughts, I got up. I pulled back on my clothes trying not to make to much noise. It was 6:35 which meant it was around that time for everyone else to get up for training. Yes, I remember the times they got up. Yelena always got up 30 minutes before the actual time she was supposed to get up for training, and it always just frustrated me. As I opened the door, I could hear her shuffling in the bed coming into a upright position. Should I look? Should I leave? Should I do a 360 turn and take a glance?
"Beatrice?" She called out. "Where are you going?"
"Back to my room. Natasha will be around to wake you up, I don't think I should be here when she does." I insisted. I kept my back to her and my eyes forward. I could practically feel the disappointment radiating. "Stay..please." She pleaded..
"..I can't."

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"You slept with her?!" Amelia emphasized. I gave them the entire run down but not in full detail. That was too graphic to even explain. "You really dug yourself a hole."
"Really Maya, let's not with the remarks." I rolled my eyes.
"Right because lets not get into what happened with you and carina." He said, probably feeling like he accomplished something.
"Okay first of all Lance, at least I have a sex life, you just have sex toys." Maya recalled.
"Sex toys?" I gasped.
"I can pleasure myself every once in awhile! There's nothing wrong with that!"
"Mhm. Sure." We all laughed. Dramatically hitting on one another, you know how those laughs are. "But honestly, you're really not making this better for yourself." Ben concluded.
"At all." Amelia agreed. "You made her fall in love, took her virginity, shamed her, brung up her past, dumped her because 'she wasn't your type' and now you've slept in her bed and fucked her. AGAIN!"
"When you put it like that, you make me feel bad!" I articulated. "You make me seem like I'm the bad person."
"You're the bad person in this situation."
"I know. I know." I sighed. Venus had been plopped down in my lap as we continued on talking and gossiping.
Sadly they had to leave. 8:25 was creeping up and they had to be gone before Ross and Nick showed up at 9:45.
"I'll see you guys tomorrow!" I shooed them. They were so eager to stay another day but they all had work to do. This was my finally day off. I had somewhat made it up to Yelena. Somewhat. "HAVE FUN WITH THE GRIZZLY!" Amelia hollered back out of the window as they drove down the driveway.
I walked back into the compound, not so sure what to do now. Everyone was still training which gave me time to fix some breakfast before the kitchen was quite literally raided. Strawberry crepe! Perfect to cook! Perfect to eat!
"Hey guys I'm back!" Peter came running into the kitchen, very hyper. "Oh, hi Dr. Clark!"
"Hey Peter! Everything alright?"
"Yeah! There was someone outside that knew you, he said he was your husband and told me if I saw you let him know. So I let him in!" He chimed.
"You w-"
"Hey bumble bee." The man came in Not to far behind Peter.
"Anthony. What a unexpected surprise. I didn't know you'd be showing up here."
"Well surprises are meant to be unexpected." He came with open arms. Ones that I didn't want to feel welcomed to. He pulled me into his suffocating grasp, holding me close. "Thank You Pete." He nodded to the boy, shoeing him away. The padded feet on the floor indicated he was off to find Tony. "So, this is where you've been staying for the past 2 days?" He questioned. "I gotta break it to ya, this is one nice building."
"..it is." I nodded.
"Are you about to fix those disgusting pancakes again? They're always so flappy and Soggy." He said in disgust. He let go of me going to sit around the opposite side of the counter. "Where are They?"
"That's none of your business."
"I don't want to hurt anyone. I just want to talk. If I wanted to hurt someone I would've killed the kid at the front door." He insisted. "And honestly i was really considering it."
Anthony stooped lower than low.. he would do anything, hurt anyone..to get what he wants. I was that want. "Do you really think you can hide out here forever? I have connections Bee, I can destroy all of this. You know that. I've done it before I'll do it again." He threatened, referring to the past incidents.
      "I'll be home, by 5.! Just let me wrap up everything here and I'm all yours.!" I assured.
      "Sounds amazing bumble bee." He smiled widely, coming back around the counter once more. He pulled me into him VERY aggressively, kissing my passionately on the lips.
       "What the hell are you doing here." Yelena scolded. When I glanced back, she was all sweaty and her hair was thrown back into a high ponytail. Peter was standing by her, filled with guilt.
       "I was coming to visit my wife. We were having a very adult conversation. Right Bee?"
       "Yeah.! We've fixed things!" I agreed reluctantly. "Everything is good between us.!"
        "Exactly." He kept a firm hold on me. "I'll see you later honey." He kissed just behind my ear before taking his leave. I could see the disappointment and anger rather than feel it. She was enraged that I even considered going back but could she blame me? I was trying to protect her! Protect them!
      Yelena was never the type to argue, so she did the only thing she could possibly do. Storm off. "Yelena! Wait!" I ran after her. She came to an immediate halt almost making me trip into her. "What do you have to say now?! You want to apologize?! You want to throw it in my face that I'm so gullible?! Well do it! Tell me how worthless I am Beatrice! Tell me how you wish you never met me! How you wish to the gods that you never slept with me!"
       "Yelena I-"
       "Don't. Don't try to explain because you always tell me the same shit! THE SAME SHIT CLARK!" She exclaimed angrily. I couldn't say anything to make her feel any better..I couldn't fix us..not even if I tried..
    This time I was really leaving. No one was stopping me from leaving. I wasn't either.
      I was prepared for what I was about to do.
      It was selfish and careless but nevertheless,
      I knew that deep down if she didn't love me, no one else would.