5SOS One-Shots

Just Numb ~Mashton

"I've become so numb, I can't feel you there. I've become so tired, so much more aware. I'm becoming this, all I want to do. Is be more like me and be less like you." ~Numb by: Linkin Park

Everyone leaves. That's the reality of it. Everyone leaves. And everyone especially leaves me. My dad left me, my friends left me, my boyfriend left me. Everyone has left me. I have no one left. Except for Mikey. Michael my best friend since birth. He's the only thing keeping me alive at this point. It's harder when I just sit here. Sit here and think about everyone that's left. When I sit here and hate myself even more. When I sit here and cry myself into oblivion. When I sit here and slice my wrist. I don't even know why I try anymore. I really don't. I think about that building 2 blocks away. Mikey and I always talking about jumping off it and flying away. Maybe I can attempt to make that dream come true. I get up and grab my phone. I run and run till I'm at the building. I think about how I picked up cutting in middle school when my dad left. I think about how everyone left me when they found out I self harmed. I cry while walking up the stairs till I'm at the top. I call Mikey, it rings. "Hello? Ashy?" He says. I reply; voice raspy, "Hey Mikey, I'm at the building.. And I just wanted to say how much I love you okay? How much I appreciate you staying when everyone left. And I just want you to know I love you. Even if you don't love me the same way." "Ashy, I-" I cut him off by hanging up. I didn't want to know what he said. I know he's disappointed in me. I walk to the edge and look up to the sky. I see the clouds moving. And I just want to move with them. I step on the ledge. And I look down. I gulp and think. This is it. Suddenly the door to the roof slams open. I see Mikey's blue hair sticking to his face. He looks at me with pain in his eyes, tears on his cheeks. He says, "Ashton, please don't do this. Please don't. I do love you! I love you like you love me I promise. Ashy, don't leave." I blink back my tears and whisper, "You don't, your going to leave like everyone else. I'll be alone, and Mikey I'm so scared to be alone.." I take a shaky breath and take a step. I wait to fall. But I don't. I'm hanging. I look up to see Michael holding on to my hand. Pulling me up. When he pulls me over the edge. I'm in his strong arms. I sob into his chest, "M-mikey, I wanted to die! W-why'd you do that! I was going to die. Mikey why didn't you let me die!" He shushes me, whispering sweet nothing's into my ear. I let it sink in. Mikey saved me. I'm falling for my savior. I'm falling for my best friend.