Light Of Darkness

Epilogue

Danaya Syre Villa Fuerte-Mortaje

"Top 1, Mr Isaiah Xian Dy and Danaya Syre Mortaje. Congratulations, tie kayo " Our teacher announced who was the top one. Bwesit, bat pa kasi mag tie pwede namang mamili nalang ng isa. Tinignan ko siya ng masama at sabay kaming pumunta sa harap para kunin ung Certificate naming pareho. Kumuha pa ng Litrato si Ma'am and bumalik na ako sa upuan. Nakakainis, palagi nalang kaming nag ta-tie sa lahat

"ano ba mas okay yan diba? Tie kayo kesa naman top 2 ka" my bestfriend said which is si naomi. Wait what? Top 2? Hello i'm smarter than him "Shut up, i am competitive as hell and i am smarter than him" i said. Naka titig siya sakin at ngumiti siya pero tinarayan ko lang siya. Masungit siya at cold, hindi kami magkakasundo pero nagugulat nalang ako na nginingitian niya ako ng madalas, inaasar niya talaga ako na para bang pinapa-mukha niya na mas matalino siya

I am here at the canteen of our school, i am grade 10 student here. Kakain na sana ng favorite kong ice cream ng may tumapat sa upuan ko "Can i seat here?" He asked. Lumingon ako sa bakanteng mga mesa at upuan "may mga bakanteng upuan pa bakit dito kapa uupo?" Inis na asar ko. Nakakainis, nandito siguro siya para ipa alala na parehas lang kami sa lahat, na kayang kaya niya akong talunin sa ibang bagay.

"i want here, can i seat here?" He asked pero dahan dahan na siyang umupo. I just rolled my eyes on him "Stop pissing me off Xian, hindi ka nakakatuwa" i said then i started eating "I am not doing anything here" he said. Tinaas pa niya ang kamay niya, binilisan ko nalang kumain at nong natapos ako ay tumayo na ako "Aalis kana?" Tanong niya

"hindi uupo palang ak--malamang sa malamang aalis na ako" inis na saad ko saka iniwan na siya doon. Nakakabwesit ang pagmumukha niya. Sinundo ako ng driver namin nong uwian. Pag uwi ko ay tumambad sakin ang mga kakambal kong mga lalaki. Yes sa triplets ay iisa lang ang babae at ang nakakabadtrip pa puro sila kalokohan, ako ang huling lumabas kaya tinuturing na akong bunso "Hoy, Kainis ka naman klio bat ka nagpa patay!! Para ka namang ewan edi talo tuloy tayo" Klion Deus Mortaje ang pangalawa saamin

"huh what are you talking about? Hello i did my best here, ikaw lang bobo ka eh" Klio Dawn Mortaje The first born. I stared at them habang nagbabangayan, they're more than older like i think mins? Or seconds? Idc but i am more matured "Stop playing" i said. They stared at me then naglaro ulit sila.

Sobrang ingay nila to the point na nagmumurahan na sila kaya padabog kong inilapag ang gamit ko "I said fucking stop playing, you two are so fucking loud!!!" I shouted them. Natahimik sila. Bumaba galing taas sila Mommy at daddy "What is going on here?" Mahinahong tanong ni dad. Kita ko ang takot nila kay dad

"W-We are just p-playing dad and a-ahh Naya wants us to stop eh" Deus said. I stared at dad and mom agad na lumapit sakin si mommy at niyakap ako, she knows whats going on me "I-I am not the only t-top 1 m-mom" i sobbed. Lumapit si klio at deus saakin "It is fine anak, stop pressuring yourself" mommy said. I still cried while they're hugging me, kahit hindi nila ako pinepressure ay sarili ko ang nag prepressure sakin.

"Top 1 or not, grade does not defined who you are anak" Dad said. He's soft when it comes to us, they will give what we need, They will give enough time, money, love and attention to us but still kahit sabihin nilang proud sila sakin gusto kong mas patunayan yon "I want to do b-best, i want all of you t-to make you proud of me" i said while crying

"kahit hindi mo naman gawin yan Naya, proud kami sayo" Deus said. Ganto sila sakin, malambing sila at maalaga pero minsan nakakabadtrip ang kakulitan nila "we are sorry for being loud, hindi na mauulit Naya" Klio said. After that dramatic scene ay nag movie marathon kami para malibang ako at hindi isipin ang pinoproblema ko.

I am here at the gym of our school. Nanalo kami sa volleyball and i am the captain of Blue Eagles. We are awarded by Mayor on this province which is si Tito Klide "The MVP OF WOMEN'S VOLLEYBALL HERE IN MIÑO HIGHSCHOOL IS!!! MORTAJE DOSE(12)!!!!" the announcer shout. Pumunta ako sa taas at isinuot nila sakin ang medalya at ibinigay naman ni Tito Klide ang Trophy "I already gave you award in your bank acc, congrats" he said. Then he hugged me "The best ka talaga tito" sagot ko.

Hindi naka punta si mommy kasi may meeting siyang importante which is okay lang naman also si Dad lawyer siya ngayon ipinagpatuloy niya yong pag lalaw niya and of course my Brothers are busy on their sports too or school works, i understand them saka eto lang naman so okay lang sakin. Sana sa susunod pag sumali ako sa debate maka nood sila.

Pag uwi ko ay sinalubong nila akong may Handang cake na dala si mommy "Congrats to our Smarty and sporty Princess!!" Mom said. I blow the candle then hug them. We ate and talk about something. How i love spending time with them. Kinabukasan non ay pumasok ako kinabukasan.

"Okay so wala naman tayong klase ngayon so lets have a not formal debate" our teacher said. Nagpantig ang mga tenga ko "Mahal ko o mahal ako? What will you choose anyone its your opinion ha" saad ulit nito. Itataas ko na sana ang kamay ko ng nauna si Xian. Bwesit, talagang inuunahan ako ng bwesit na to eh

"For me i'll choose mahal ako, bakit ako mag wawaste ng time sa isang taong hindi naman ako gusto hindi ba? Why would i settle for less if pwede naman pag aralang mahalin ang taong minamahal na ako" xian said. Tumango tango ang teacher so i stand up confidently "Yes, Danaya?" My teacher asked.

"For me, i'll choose mahal ko. For me loving someone is to love her/him unconditionally at isa pa ang pag mamahal hindi pinag aaralan-bigla bigla nalang siyang nararamdaman. Mahalin mo ng walang kapalit, mahalin mo ng walang bayad, and xian said why would you settle for less? What if kapag niligawan mo ung tao tapos gusto ka parin pala nya? Papaano pag worth it yong pag sugal mo? For me even if i am not sure if he will love me back atleast i did my best to tell him or to feel what i felt for him, i'll take a risk kahit sa dulo ay matatalo parin ako" saad ko. Pumalakpak ang teacher at akala ko tapos na pero tumayo ulit siya " mahalin ng walang kapalit? Really? Then thats not love anymore, thats selfless.. a suicide Danaya..Alam mo sa sarili mo na masasaktan ka pero gugustuhin mo paring ilaban kahit hindi ka sigurado? How pathetic" he said

Nag salubong ang kilay ko "Hindi ka ba gusto ng taong gusto mo?" Asar na tanong ko. Nag tawanan naman ang lahat at pati narin ang teacher namin "I didn't shoot my shot eh" he said while laughing. Ginulo niya pa ang buhok niya kaya ako napatitig skaniya, matangkad, chinito, maputi, matalino, gwapo tsk bwesit "Then do it, take your shot para naman hindi ka bitter" saad ko.

Tinitigan niya ako "Are you sure i'll shoot my shot? What if ayaw niya sakin?" Sagot nito. Tinignan ko naman siya ng masama, eh di pa nga nya natatry papaano niya malalaman tsk boplaks din to eh "What if gusto niya? What if your shot is worth it?" I said back. Kita ko ang pag lunok niya at ang pag antay ng mga classmate ko sa isasagot niya..huwag ka ng sumagot, kainis magpatalo kana tsk

"You think so?" He asked again. Taas noo akong sumagot "Yes, of course..take a shot then tsk" as i said that tumayo sya ng tuwid at tinitigan ako "I like you, Danaya Syre" he said. I was too stunned to speak, para bang naging slow motion ang paligid and this time, this time i accepted that i lose, i lose because of him...because of Isaiah Xian Dy.