HE BROKE ME FIRST

TIME IN REHAB

Today is my first day at rehab to better myself and my family. I can't keep hurting them. I walked into the building with my brother. I don't like being away from my family, but I have to do what is right For them, and I need this for myself too.
"Dean, we will be okay." Hope said,
"I know, l just don't want to be away from my family," I said,
"Just think about the bright side, you will be better and then Jessy will be happier," Hope said,
"I'm just scared they forget about me while I'm here," I said,
"We won't forget about you because your kids look just like you and Jessy," Hope said,
"Dean, I'm proud of taking this step for help," David said,
"Thanks, bro, I had to do this for the family," I said,
"Well, let's get this over with, so I can get back to my family," I said,
"Baby, I love you and I will come to visit you," Jessy said
"I love you too, baby. I'm so sorry I didn't tell you about my addiction. But I will make it better for us." Dean said
Then I hugged and kissed my family. When they left, It was only me and my brother. I know I can get through this and fix things because Jessy loves me and our kids love me, so I have to do this for them.
"Bro, call me if you need anything. I'm a call away. I'm very proud of you for doing this, Dean." David said,
"Thank you bro for pushing me to tell them," I said
"Your welcome bro," David said
After everyone left, I went and got settled in my room. When I got to my room, I saw I had a roommate. He was pretty cool and quiet. Until one day he went out and relapsed and got 20 women pregnant. He was way out of control. That is why I need this help. I don't want to lose my family. The only girl I want 20 babies with is Jessy. She's my heart and soul, and I don't want to hurt her anymore. She doesn't deserve it. I can't wait to have her in my arms again and hold my kids. I looked at my firstborn's two boys and then my born's two girls. I love them all with all my heart. Then my roommate came, and he seemed to be in a bad mood. I kept to myself and did not bother anyone. The less drama, the more peace. I just want to get this over with.
"Hey, roommate, stop letting that girl hold you back from fucking." Stranger said,
"That's my wife you're talking about, asshole," I said,
"Oh please, no woman wants to marry a sex-addicted man, if she married you she's crazy," Stranger asked,
"She is mine and our kids are mine," I said,
"Keep thinking that chicks are cruel in this world," Stranger said,
"Anyway, what's your name, I'm Jeff," Jeff asked,
"My name is Dean," I said
"Nice to meet you, Dean. I hope you get the help you need, kid." Jeff said,
"Thanks, I needed this help for a while now," I said
Then I put my headphones on and start listening to my music. Jessy put our favorite songs on here for me to keep me going and think about her and the kids. I can't help but smile when I'm listening to our songs. What makes me sad, by the time I get out my kids are walking and talking, and I will miss it all. I started crying like a baby because I did this to myself and I should have gotten help years ago, but I didn't because I didn't see myself having a family and wife with me having a sex addiction. But like they say, there's a way that one miracle that would come into your life. Jessy and my kids are my miracles, and I'm thankful she gave me a chance to be with her and be a father to my kids. After listening to my music, I took a shower to think about Jessy. I started to touch myself and stroke my dick, just thinking about what she was doing right now. Rubbing that nice pink pussy and moaning my name. I move my hand faster, and I'm about to bust at one more thought about her. I came so hard just for Jessy. I washed myself off, then went to my room until phone time. Finally, during phone time, I called my brother first, then I called Jessy and the kids.
(Call started)
Dean: Hey bro, how are you doing?
David: Hey man, I'm okay, just helping Jessy out with the kiddos.
Dean: aww, how are they doing?
David: terrible 2s bro, they drive us nuts, but we love them though. How are things going for you, bro?
Dean: Good so far I made friends here and the groups are helpful. I'm doing well, though.
David: I'm proud of you Dean, keep up the good work man. You will be out of there in no time.
Dean: Thanks bro, I appreciate it.
David: hey, have to go, your boys are fighting over toys.
Dean: okay bro, tell them I love them
David: I will later
Dean: later
(Call ended)
Then I called Jessy, but no answer. I will try again later. She's probably sleeping. After I got off the phone, I went to my room for a nap. I woke up and took a shower, then waited till phone time to try Jessy again.
I miss her voice so much. I can't wait to get out of here. Finally, it's phone time, and I'm so happy to talk to Jessy.
(Call started)
Dean: hey baby
Jessy: hi handsome
Dean: How are you doing?
Jessy: I'm good, how are you?
Dean: I'm okay, I miss you and the kids.
Jessy: We miss you too, baby.
Dean: David said the kids are terrible 2s
Jessy: yes they are, but it's only the boys, the girls have been awesome.
Dean: When I get home, they change their behavior.
Jessy: I hope so because they are terrible.
Dean: I love you
Jessy: I love you too
(Call ended)