Not Glass, but Diamond

Secret Admirer

Kakashi's POV:

I walked over to Obito's grave as usual. It was 8 in the morning. I was supposed to meet my team an hour ago about the planning of a mission we had to leave for later today. But it isn't like I'm doing anything new. As I placed the flowers on his grave I saw the familiar orange piece of paper on the stone. I picked it up, opened it and proceeded to read it almost in a little excitement.

Dear Kakashi-san

How has your day been? If you're reading this, it means that you're here again. I hope your pain has reduced at least a little bit since last year as I haven't missed writing to you a single day. I really wish that I have been of help.

And happy birthday to you Kakashi-san. I know you don't usually celebrate it, but no day makes me happier than the day the world was gifted with your presence. I know you would have preferred to spend it with the love of your life, Obito-San, and that's why you never celebrate it. But I hope a wish from me means at least a little to you.

How's life with team-7 these days? Are you eating well? Are you still late to be everywhere? And your challenges with Guy-San. Have there been any new weird ones? And who is winning now? I hope you are still meeting up with Asuma-San, Kurenai-San, Iruka-san and Guy-San every once in a while. And as usual, I'm begging you to not spend too much time alone wallowing in your pain.

You stopped replying to me a while ago so I don't know about your life or feelings anymore. You never once asked to meet me and the last time you replied sounded like a goodbye and that was like 2 months ago. I hope you're reading this because this is the last letter I'm going to write. This is going nowhere. I have lost all hope. I'm hopelessly in love with you. Yet even after almost 10 years since Obito san and a whole year of me trying to get my feelings across to you, your heart doesn't seem to have wavered even a bit. Hell, you haven't even been curious to know who I was.

So, this is Goodbye Kakashi-San. And lastly, if you do want to know who I am, come to the top of the Great Stone Faces this Friday at midnight. I'll be there.

With only love
Your secret admirer

And the letter ended. There were a lot of botched spots towards the end which could only mean that those were caused by the tears of my secret admirer.

They were right. I never once asked to meet them. At first, I didn't think much of this person or the letters. But they wrote everyday without fail with such hope and positivity and hope that it started to touch me, lift my spirits a little each day, dulled my pain and heartache a little each week. And then one day, a day I was particularly weak, I wrote back. Opening up and putting all of my pent up feelings and emotions out there. Something about opening up to a stranger gave me a sense of peace and my heart was a lot lighter the next day than it was before. But the closer we got, I panicked. What if the letters stop one day? What if I lose them too if I got too close? And I already have an idea who it could be and I just can't afford to confirm it either. I guess that was the main reason I never asked and even stopped replying.

But who am I kidding? Now that I've got their last letter, it has hit me harder than ever. This person has already become someone I can't lose. That was why I couldn't stop reading their letters even when I stopped writing back. That was why I had a spring in my walk everytime I walked to meet Obito. That was why the letters grew to become the best part of my days. Obito will always be my first but maybe I can give myself another chance. 'Right Obito? That's what you would want right? Me to be happy?'

I talk to Obito for a while and reach the A-Un gates by the time we had to leave for the mission.