Heartstopper:storys

why

Nick pov:
"my boyfriend, Charlie Spring,was many things"I pause and looked at Charlie's picture than look at the spring family I took a deep breath and start my speech again "he was funny, caring, loving, cheerful  person, everyone who he met, he helped them,
He bring ed joy for everyone's life,
He never had easy in his life, he was bullied,
He had an eating disorder, everyone made him feel like he was ruining others life but no he made life's better
He made my life better too even he though he ruined it, but no he was the one who made it better
But he didn't do that just for me but to his siblings Tori and Oliver, his parent and his friends,Charlie if you hear this I want to say i love you so much and I'm going too love you for the rest of my life, your the best,that one year being with you was the best your are the best I wish I could show you that  we are going to miss you, rest in peace char, I love you"
When I ended my speech I went to sit down next to my mom who was sobing " you did great sweetheart" I sight "thanks mom" we sit in silent and lose Ng to everyone's speech

After everyone told there speech we went here me to change clothes and went to the springs house to help them pack up there things because the are moving out to other city they can't handle that there son is gone, that can't handle living in the same house,same street, same city where there son died as my mom was helping packing Jane and Julio in living Tori was packing her room and I went to Charlie's room

When i entered to his room it was empty not because of the stuff the room was full
But because Charlie wasn't there
And he never going to be there again,never going to play on his drums, never going to sleep in his bed, never going to do his homework in his room and Charlie never going to be there ever again
Those thought made me want to cry 
As I was packing his stuff i remembered all those moment, those funny, loving moment
What I would die to live those over again
To Charlie Be here with me with his family
"Hey nick" Charlie's mom entered the room
"I don't know if you want to but if you want you can keep some of Charlie's stuff, of course if you want" "thanks Mrs.Spring" she noded and left the room
I'm going to keep some of his stuff what belonged to him
I took some picture of us, I took back my hodie but I'm never going to wear them or wash them because last time somebody wore the it was Charlie, I took his drums stick for a memory when he tried to teach me how to play the drums and at that moment I knew that that I love that boy I didn't  know what was those feelings, I took one pair  of his converse, my favourite one
And that was all
When I finished Charlie's room I left the room but it was heartbreaking to remember that was the last time I'm going to be in that room, I went down said goodbye to his family and I wished luck for them
My mom stayed there to be with them help to pack there last thing

I went to my car I sat down and start to crying afert good 10 minutes I finally decided to drive away but I didn't drive to me house I drive to the cemetery and went to Charlies grave it didn't take me a secret Nd I broke down "Charlie why?!?!" I started to screaming "why did you do that baby?!?why do you leave me?!? It's not fair?!? Why?!? I can't live without you?!? I love you!!!" A scream between sobs and than everything went blank
When I woke up I was in my bed and it was dark I look at the other side of my bed and was Charlie lying and my bed and he was peacefully sleep
Oh it must be a bad dream
I went to Charlie and hugged him from behind and fall a sleep next to my boyfriend