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Chapter 33

Olivia's POV

I slept in today because it's weekend and I needed some rest. I woke up at around 10:00 and decided on breakfast before starting with the salads, I promised I'd prepare for the barbeque we're having later today at Taylor's.

I made some garlic potatoes and a three-bean salad. It's quick and easy to make, and it will go well with the sausage, chicken and steak that the guys will be grilling. The rest of the guys are bringing some other dishes, some snacks and drinks. With them the alcohol will never be far behind.

I got a sudden ache in my chest and a feeling of heaviness in my soul as my mind wander to the night that I saw Domenico with that woman. There hasn't been a day where the thought of him and his adulterous actions hasn't crossed my mind. On other days I get thoughts, such as, is he happy now that I'm gone? Does he regret cheating on me? Does he regret stringing me along? These thoughts that consume my mind most of the time and then on the other hand, I'm so pissed at him and feel used. I'm angry for allowing him to do this to me. I experience the seven stages of grief on a daily basis and it hurts like hell.

I shook off this heaviness before it consumed my whole being. I won't allow the results of Domenico's actions deprive me of happiness or my potential future.

The weather was beginning to get colder now that's why we all agreed on chilling at Taylor's. His home was comfy and he had a barbeque area with a porch that is covered should it start to rain. By the time I was done with the salads, I decided to take a long bath because I knew this will be a long ass day. These people and their drinking and partying. I could never wrap my head around the fact that they had to have a get together every weekend. It's probably because they are all the family they had.

All of them either came from broken homes or orphanages. It's funny how life threw us together. All the broken people trying to make sense of life.

I left my apartment at 13:00 and made my way to Taylor's which was a street away from where I lived. As I reached, I already saw Kelly and Russel there on the front porch sipping on alcoholic beverages.

"Hey guys" I greet, with an enthusiastic grin.

"Hey girl, how's your head" Kelly asked, smiling back at me.

"I was a little parched when I woke up, but other than that I'm good" I say. The rest also greet with hugs and I place my salads that was neatly packed in a cotton bag on the table.

"Where's the other guys" I asked, glancing at Taylor before taking the nearest empty seat.

"They should be here any minute. What can I get you to drink".

"Tequila with some juice please" I say, grinning and he just shook his head, already aware that today will be a rough day. Well, if they intend to party, I might as well live a little instead of allowing the past to weigh on me so much.

They rest arrived twenty minutes later with more drinks and food. The conversation started to flow while Dustin was busy at the grill. We laughed and toasted and I have to say that today is a way better day then I anticipated. There was a time during the day where I just sat staring at them, processing the fact of how lucky I was meeting everyone through Dustin. They just want to be happy after having sad lives, just like me.

"I see your having a lovely time for a change" Kyle mentioned, while placing himself on the seat next to me.

"I always enjoy myself, Kyle. I just don't always feel like overdoing it with the parties every weekend" I honestly countered, turning to face him.

He nodded "do, you really don't want to give me a chance?" he whispered, so the other won't hear, making me internally cringe. It's not that I won't try and date, but I can't while not knowing if I'm still married or not. I also don't have the mental capacity to attempt a relationship at this point. I just want to enjoy life for a moment before throwing myself at boys again.