Rant + Vent

Siblings

Its not even funny anymore. You decide to have more children while knowing damn well that your oldest is already not doing well so you decided to have to f*cking replace me because "I'm not the child you want" SO shove it up your arse I didn't choose to be f*cking born just to be f*cking replaced by relatives. You're always telling me that the world is unfair and im fully f*cking aware that the world is unfair so deal with me being me. But the ones you intended to replace my purpose  are also like me now since I have to do the actual emotional raising of my younger siblings because you are always fighting and upset about something I can't fix I've been trying so f*cking hard to at least let them have a better childhood than mine so they have a parental figure in their lives unlike when I was neglected because "you had f*cking work" to provide for me which was true but was also unfair when I was shipped off to China to be raised by my grandparents that just hired babysitters to look after me (they have a better excuse since who tf shipps off their child to live with people in their 50's-60's) I at least still show my affection in non toxic ways that you'll never probably be able to until their fully block you out of their lives. You should be so f*cking glad I sympathize you and my siblings otherwise I would've bailed the moment you allowed me to. (<- targeted fully at my mother and partially at my father)