𝘼𝙡𝙡 𝙁𝙤𝙧 𝙇𝙤𝙫𝙚 [𝙇𝙚𝙚 𝘿𝙤𝙣𝙜𝙝𝙮𝙪𝙘𝙠]

19🌸

Warning - Mention of slight depression.

Bad influencer.
Bad motivator.
Bad at helping others.

Jihye splashed some cold tap water on her face at the school's washroom breathing heavily.

"No Jihye, he was just teasing, don't overthink" she mumbled to herself and closed her eyes.

The instant Jisung said those words made her feel worthless and doubt on herself.
Jihye wants a day, a single day where it feels she isn't falling apart anymore.

No one breaks your heart more than you do by overthinking every little thing.

Anxiety fucking sucks.

You unintentionally make yourself sad, you feel alone even when you're not and sometimes you don't even know what's wrong.

Jihye dried her face with her handkerchief and looked at herself in the mirror staring back at her own reflection.

Those tired eyes, can't anyone see that?

Jihye doesn't know when it started, she doesn't know when she started taking other's opinion and words so seriously. She was independent and strong but not anymore.

Now she's scared.

Scared to get judged by others, scared to make others get disappoint at her, scared that she won't be able to stand on other's expectations and scared to lose her loved ones.

Jihye walked out of the washroom and towards her classroom to get her bag. She reached the place and it was empty, all the students were either in the playground or already at home.

She put her hands inside the bag and took out a medicine box taking a pill from it and chugging it inside with the water in her bottle.

Anxiety pills.

She sighed and closed her eyes to calm herself down.

After organising her bag and stuffs, Jihye immediately put on the captain's badge back on her uniform and turned around only to get stopped by looking at the figure on the door of the classroom who was looking at her with questioning and somewhat concerned and worried gaze.

"Ji"
Jaemin called out softly and walked inside the room standing infront of her.

"Are you ok?" He asked and lifted his hands up to caress her head but Jihye took a step back.

"Yeah of course I am Jaemin, what are you doing here? How was your match, did you all lose? I was little busy sorry I didn't came to watch your game"

She rambled making the boy purse his lips as to how much she's going to hide her feelings anymore infront of him.

"Which pills you were taking Jihye" he asked softly but sternly making the girl's pupil dilate from his piercing one.

"C-Cough pill yeah a cough pill, I had a sore throat, doctor suggested to have some yeah"