31 Days

Day 4

A/N:
I'm not sure if anybody was faithfully reading this (the few chapters it had) but I will be continuing this as of now, hopefully I'll be updating once a week (probably Fridays)
I'm so sorry it took so damn long to update. Things are just bad now as they were + the fact I got a job. ugh. Well that should be it.
Who ever you are, and what ever your going through I just want to say I'm here, and I'm always looking for new friends, I'm here to listen.
-Van

Alex POV:

Opening my eyes I was blinded instantly by the blandness that is the walls surrounding me.

I instantly pulled myself out of the ugly yet oddly comfortable white and beige bed that seems to be just like my long term middle school relationship. Basically a month long.

Walking carefully on each tile I found myself standing in front of my bathroom mirror.

I ran my fingers through my tangled hair and assesed myself.

I spun slightly, taking my time criticizing the shape, marks, and dullness that seems to be me. I'm a regular old Mona Lisa, obviously with out the world wide fame and fortune.

I proceeded to put on my yoga pants, followed by a sweater that is dreadfully aweful to others. But that is exceedingly adorable in my eyes.

tiptaptiptap.

The sound of my rubber Velcro shoes (that are obviously to ugly to not be required by this damn hell hold) echoed through the hall. Unmistakably happy about the fact that no one was in the hall I decided to go to the vending machines, hoping to god that they won't be overwhelmed by crazy naked people (which is highly probable.)

As I neared my destination a feeling of satisfaction created due tot he fact that this area was also empty.

I pulled at the assigned seat that held one of my two chichis that was indeed holding my tokens.
As I stuck my hand down my shirt a certain someone appeared by me giving a soft chuckle.

Jared POV-

As I was wheeled back from intensive care wing of the ward to my usual room I smiled taking in the fact that the halls were empty.

"Hey man, to be honest I just really want to get some breakfast, it will be over soon. When I get back I'll have the nurse page you that I'm safe." This sent the male nurse back the way he came from as I walked to the lunch room. Fully intending in indulging in the wonders that is called sustenance. Or food, to all you dense mutherfuckers out there.

As I turned the corner I saw Alex there with her hand down her shirt, basically clutching her own boob.

I instantly let out a humorous chuckle at her behavior.

"Digging for the pot of gold?" I asked in a horrible Irish accent.

she in response laughed throwing her head back slightly as she did so.
This being a key point in our relationship (or the one sided fantasies I take care of myself at night ;) ) I took in all of my surroundings just wanting to remember what exactly keeps me here.

I smiley brightly, and honestly for the first time in a long long time. It felt as though things were finally adding up. And whether this s because I have a very prominent crush on a certain Alex, or if it's because maybe just maybe I'm finally seeing things in a new perspective. A perspective that is not my own, and that's going to take a bit getting used to. The thing is, "life is exactly how it should be, at this very moment"

Maybe this is what will give me hope.

And I have got to say, hope is a very underestimated feeling.

But that's the thing, so is sadness.

A/N
I know, I know,  again I'm sorry for the time gap.
It took me about 2 days just to catch myself up and write this chapter. But I WILL be sticking to my Friday schedule. I can't tell you how difficult it's been to just live.
With all these things around me it feels like I'm just sitting like a lost puppy on the side of the road. The thing is, I want to meet new people, make friendships that last a life time. With my anxiety I don't get out that much with out feeling like I'm losing my mind. But I thought I would give wattpad a try to not only write but talk to people who understand.
Thank you so much for reading this whoever you are :)

~ Van