Tmnt Oneshots!

I love you Otouto

This is all just brotherly fluff!  No T-cest or proshipping at all!

Let me know what you think! ^^  -jupiter

Raph’s POV

“I really miss you Spike..” I mumble, staring longingly at a picture of him. Sighing, I hang the picture back on the wall and fall backwards onto my pillow. It’s about four in the morning, but I just can’t make myself go to sleep. It’s only been a week since he mutated and I haven’t slept much at all. Not that anyone’s noticed. When I get this low, I would normally talk to Spike. He was the only one who understood me. Sure, he couldn’t really talk, but he always looked at me with knowing eyes and always knew when to come comfort me. Leo suggested we get a different turtle, but I shut that idea down instantly. Spike cannot be replaced. He was my best friend. “Nothing stays the same does it?” I whisper, trying not to cry. I cannot be weak. 

I stand up and leave my room quietly, heading to the bathroom to wash my face.

As soon as I step outside of my door, something feels off. My shoulders tense. My brother senses are tingling. I’ll just check on them real quick and make sure nothing is actually wrong. Seeing as I haven’t slept, I am a little more paranoid than normal, or so what Donnie says. I have no idea if he’s right. 

First I stop in front of Leo’s room. I silently push his door open, and then I see his shadow and hear his even breaths. Next I go to Donnie’s room, though I know he is probably in the lab. I slowly open his door because his door makes the most noise when it opens. My eyes darted to the bed, shockingly enough, Donnie is actually sleeping in his room for once. Mikey probably convinced him somehow. Lastly, I get to Mikey’s room. As I am about to turn the doorknob, I hear him..crying? 

I softly knock on his door so I don’t alarm him. I hear shuffling and then the door opens slowly, revealing a sleep deprived Mikey. 

“Raph? What are you doing awake?” He asks, big eyes looking at me. I can see he has bags under his eyes and tear stains on his cheeks.

“I uhm, I thought I heard something. Just wanted to make sure you were doin’ alright.” I reply. I am not great at comforting people at all. 

“Did I wake you up? I’m so sorry if I did, I just-” He starts, when suddenly I wrap my arms around him and pull him into a hug. “Don’t worry little brother, you didn’t wake me up.” 

Only seconds later I feel Mikey’s body trembling, sobbing uncontrollably into my plastron. I don’t move, and I wait for him to calm down. Rubbing my hand in circles on his shell, I softly tell him it’s all going to be okay. Soon enough, Mikey went silent, only sniffling a little. I walk us over to his bed, shutting the door on the way, and we sit down. I put my arm around his shoulders and he leans into me. Mikey enjoys physical reassurance. Honestly I do too, I just don’t let anyone know. 

After a few more moments I finally ask, “Do you want to talk about it?” He stares up at me, tears still brimming his light blue eyes. He looks back down and nods a little, letting me know he does want to talk. “What’s up little bro?” 

“Raph..am I good enough?” Mikey whispers, barely audible. My eyes widen and I take his shoulders and make him look at me. 

“Michaelangelo, do not ever ask me that again. You are and always have been good enough. Sure, you can be a pain in my shell, but that doesn’t mean anything. We’re brothers, it’s normal to bicker. What makes you think that you aren’t enough?” I question, looking at him and waiting for an answer. 

He bites the side of his cheek and starts trembling again. “I-I don’t know..I just feel so worthless to the team! I am always messing up and getting distracted. What use do I even have, Raphie? Leo is the leader. Donnie is the smart one. And you’re the strong one!” He sobs, trying not to make eye contact. He is shaking like a leaf. 

“Mikey, look at me.” I whisper. He looks up at me, tears streaming down his face. It hurts seeing him like that. Pulling him back into a hug, I say, “Little brother, you are the sunshine of this team, of this family. Without you, we wouldn’t be the same. You’re always there to cheer us up, to distract us from overworking ourselves.”

“But what about whenever you yell at me?” He asks, shaking a little less. He pulls away and looks up at me earnestly. 

“Mikey, I don’t mean anything I say. I never think straight when I’m angry. I’m sorry. I really am trying to work on it..it’s just becoming a little more difficult without Spike.” I shakily say, kicking myself for sounding so weak in front of my youngest brother. 

It’s quiet for a few more minutes, both of us thinking. Eventually, Mikey tugs on my arm and pulls me back into a hug. “I love you, Raphie. I’ll always be here if you ever need to talk to someone..” He mumbles, dozing off. I smile a little and whisper, “I love you too, Otouto.” I feel very content, knowing that Mikey has my back. I don’t deserve such an awesome little brother. After a few more minutes, I soon fall asleep, still hugging Mikey.