Cedric Diggory Imagines

I'm Sorry

summary: u have a horrible life

Y/n: ur name

Warning(s): swearing, mentions of swerslide, s3lf hrm, and basically all types of s3lf hat3 and stuff like that, also this is rlly rlly short but I'm gonna make a pt 2

You loved him. The most popular boy in school. But he didn't love you. He thought that you were one of those girls who just wanted him for his looks and popularity. But you truly loved him. His kindness, the way he listens carefully to someone when they're talking to him, his patience, and the way he helped everyone. 

But he didn’t love you back. Ever since the third year you've been trying to get with him, flirting and trying to get his attention in obnoxious ways. He hated you for it, and the way you always glared at whoever he was going out with, or whenever he was talking to any of his female friends. He hated how you would distract him when he was running late for a class. He hated how you interrupted him whenever he was flirting with a girl.

The thing was, you were going through a lot. Your mentally and physically abusive family, first of all. All parents love their kids, right? Wrong. Not yours. No matter what you did, they were always unimpressed by you, and they truly hated you. They thought you were a burden and nothing more than just an extra mouth to feed.

They were the world's worst parents. They made you start to want to
kill yourself, and you knew now that you were worthless. They always compared you to others and never felt proud of you. Every time you would make even the smallest of mistakes, they would give you a beating, making sure to scar you in some way and make you bleed and have injuries.

Not to mention your 'friends'. They never truly likes you for who you were. They just used you for answers and someone they could take their anger and insecurities on by either picking fights with you, back hand complimenting you, or just straight up bullying you. Whenever you tried ranting to them, they always shut you up by talking about their own lives or just saying that things will get better, or even sometimes saying that you deserved thisnl hard life.

So, when your parents send you a howler saying to kill yourself, you decided to since you literally had no one in this world.

But, you wrote one last message to Cedric. You just had to.

Dear Cedric,

Before you ask how I am (not that I think you will), I'm fine. Oh wait, I'm not.

But you never cared, did you?

And you never did.

But I guess no one does.

I hope you're doing way better than I am.

I don't know if you're going to get this letter or not, but I just wanted to say that I love you. With all of my heart.

Why?

You're so kind and caring to others. You're so patient. You're so helpful. You're compassionate. You want to see justice served the right way.

My parents told me to kill myself, so I'm about to do that. Since literally no one cares about me. All my friends are fake, my parents hate me, and all boys seem to think that I'm annoying. Which I am.

I hope you have a long and beautiful life, filled with nothing but smiles and laughter. I hope no pain ever overcomes you as it did to me. I hope you find the perfect girlfriend and get married and get children. Overall, I hope you're always happy.

I also wanted to say that I'm sorry. I'm sorry for annoying you all those years. I'm sorry for not giving you space. I'm sorry for ruining your chances with some girls, making them think we're dating.

Above all, I'm sorry for what I am. I'm sorry that I ever existed.

With so much love,

Y/n M/n L/n

A/n: sorry if any of this triggered anything, and sorry that it was short. Pt 2 is hopefully coming soon