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CHAPTER 28 (part 1)

She couldn't cry. She was hurt but had no energy
left to cry. Her head was dizzy and the buzzing
inside her ears didn't stop.

It hurt. It really, truly, deeply hurt.

She thought Amber was different, what they had was real and she'd love her no matter what.

I was wrong huh?

Tara gathered herself together. She breathed the
Oxygen inside and out her lungs to calm down.
"So be it," she encouraged herself. It wasn't the
first time for her being thrown out because of her terrible past so she used to it. She had to get used to it.

With all the dignity she had left, she collected all
her stuff. She was so lost in her mind, replying the moments she had with Amber, all the bad and good memories. She didn't regret it, not even a second she could regret it.

She should've seen this corning. Amber reacted really bad when the incident with the certain people  happened before. It was a misunderstanding but she disappeared- not really disappeared since they met at hospital for couple minutes- for days but still, without communication whatsoever.

So what did she expect? Her past was horrible, she was a horrible person and now she had to accept it if Amber finally lost it.

Every beginning had an end. So did their
relationship. She'd move on, someday, and when she looked back to this certain time, it'd be a precious lesson.

"Done packing?" Amber leaned at the door frame with her arms folding in front of her chest.

You really can't wait to kick me out?

"A bit more," she replied shortly.

Tara speed up the cleaning. It wasn't possible to
pack everything in such short amount of time. She was about to ask Amber's permission to left half of her stuff here when she felt a soft peck on her right cheek.

Her eyes bulged wide as she gasped at the sudden intimate contact.

"I think that is enough for tonight," she spoke
calmly.

Amber took Tara's hand in hers. Nothing had
changed, the way she held her hand. It was the
same firm yet gentle and protective grip.

Tara felt like she was being hypnotized. What
was with all this chaos? She followed Amber's lead without questioning or complaining. Her brain was paralyzed, she couldn't process anything.

She blinked a couple times before realize that she was standing in the middle of Amber's bedroom.

Amber stroked Tara's unnoticeable scar tenderly. Her eyes were dim and tired.

"I have a creepy confession to make," Amber said with a low voice hoarsely.

"There are many nights that I couldn't sleep. I
toss and turn around over and over again but I
still can't sleep. So then I get out to stare at your
door, your dark room by the ventilation for
hours. I never peek inside your room, I swear. I
also sometimes stick my ear to your door hoping
to hear your steady breath. I'm not a creepy
person, I can guarantee you that. I just miss you
too much and you're just a door away from me, I can't help myself." the way she spoke, it was more like she vomiting all the words she'd been keeping inside without too much thought.

Amber leaned in and attached her lips onto Tara's. The latter froze, she couldn't kiss her back.

"Kiss me please, ReeRee," Amber pleaded, she kissed her again. "Don't leave me, I beg you. Kiss me," she whispered.

Tara felt her cheeks dampened. She cupped Amber's  face and detached their joined lips.

"ReeRee..." Amber started to sob. "Please don't go. I love you, I can't- I won't survive without you. Please," she begged again. "I don't care about what they say, I don't care even if the world hates you. I love you, don't leave, please."