stiles in new york

really?

Stiles pov

We walk out the hospital hand in hand both on the verge of tears and squeezing each other's hand

I don't think but I just hug him and not let go and letting my tears flow while I feel some wet tears falling from his face onto my shirt

I hug him tighter then ever and let go looking at him in the eyes

"I like you"

"what?"

"well since I'm going to leave and probably die I wanted to tell you how I feel about you and i don't just like you I like like you I mean I like you more than friends I like you more than best friends I like you m-"

I was cut short by his lips touching mine I was shocked at first but then I calmly joined the movement and calmly turned into passionatly

Right as I was begging to feel good about this, thoughts popped up in my head

Why are you kissing him?

First of all he's problebly doing it because he pittys you

And second of all even if he means it you're going to die why waste his time on love that will not even last long

They were right he doesn't want me and even he did I'll be dead soon and I will be the cause of his pain

I stopped kissing him and slightly pushed him away for his and my sake

"What's wrong"

He asked worried but I could hear slightest bit of guilt in his voice

"I'm sorry I shouldn't have kissed you,let's go"

"No st-"

"Let's go Derek!"

"Okey..."

He says while there is defeat glowing in his eyes, those eyes are like knifes piercing into mine everytime that I look at him

We walk over to the car in silence,we drive in silence, we get home in silence, I grab my stuff and leave in silence

He doesn't know I have left yet cause he's in the shower and I'm supposed to be watching TV right now

I put the volume high so his werewolf ears wouldn't notice my heart wasn't there

As I'm driving I noticed how weak I was and that my vision wasn't 100% clear but I pushed through and finally returned home to my dad sitting at the counter

Be had his head in his hand while the other was holding something else, a letter

I didn't have to think twice to know it was probably a hospital letter with my diagnosis on it or a bill from the hospital

"Dad I'm sorry I didn't tell you sooner but I wanted to be sure before I burdened you with more worries"

"Stiles..."

He says standing and slowly walking up to me

"Your burdens are my burdens your problems are my problems, I understand your decision to not tell me but you also have to understand that I am your father and you can keep something like this from me"

"I know it was just too hard to look you in the eyes and tell you that I'm going to die"

"Son you are not going to die! We can do treatment or surgery or anything, you won't die!"

"Dad my cancer ,lukemia, is stage three... You can't cure it anymore"

He goes quiet like he is thinking or something

"The bite! Scott can bite you and you don't have to die and you will live long and hap-"

"DAD! I don't want the bite okay? You have to except that this is where my story ends okey, the doctors say I've got more than a year to live!"

"No I will not stand by and watch while you die when there is an option to save you!"

"Dad you won't have to stop and watch,I'm going to do everything on my bucket list so I can die peacefully "

"You have to listen to my we can use the bite and save you do yo-"

"No you have to listen! I have spent my whole life trying to find out who I am before the world told me who to be, and now I finally get to chance to go out into the world and find my self and peacefully rest, do you not want that, I know this will sound bad but I'm tired of fighting my life has only ever been fighting and now I get the chance to be at peace and I will take it wether you like it or not!"

"Son please don't die, don't leave me"

"I won't leave you I'll always be in your heart and my soul will be attached to you forever and don't worry about being alone I see the chemistry between you and Melissa, you will find your love again"

After all the words leave my mouth and are finally spoken my dad couldn't resist pulling me into a hug

I could feel the salty water drip onto my shirt making it wet but I didn't care this hug was finally putting me at peace with leaving this town