𝗚𝗜𝗥𝗟♡𝗙𝗥𝗜𝗘𝗡𝗗𝗦 (felissa ashley & oc)

𝟴 𝗹𝗲𝘁𝘁𝗲𝗿𝘀 𝗯𝘆 𝘄𝗵𝘆 𝗱𝗼𝗻'𝘁 𝘄𝗲

"𝖨𝖿 𝖺𝗅𝗅 𝗂𝗍 𝗂𝗌 𝗂𝗌 𝖾𝗂𝗀𝗁𝗍 𝗅𝖾𝗍𝗍𝖾𝗋𝗌, 𝗐𝗁𝗒 𝗂𝗌 𝗂𝗍 𝗌𝗈 𝗁𝖺𝗋𝖽 𝗍𝗈 𝗌𝖺𝗒?"

𝗳𝗲𝗹𝗶𝘀𝘀𝗮 𝗽𝗼𝘃
I couldn't sleep last night. I stayed up late because I was waiting for Martina to text me when she got home. When she did she...she said she loves me.

To those who don't take that seriously, they should. Considering me and Tina's relationship lately it made me think about it. We were girl friends for two months and started dating only two weeks ago. However, the entire time we were sneaking around it felt like we were dating. And I loved every moment. So yes, I love Martina. But does she really love me?

Next Kidz are all hanging out today to do some vlogging for our YouTube channel. Since Tina left me on read, I'll try to talk to her there.

The plan was to go downtown and walk around maybe eat something who knows. Being downtown reminded me of my first date with Tina. Can I stop thinking about her for five minutes?!

Tina arrived with Angie. She's wearing a short white dress and a blue Jean jacket over it, along with some black and white converses. Similar to our matching outfit we wore here. Except I didn't match her this time. After she greeted everyone I greeted her last. "Hi Blossom~" I greet her normally, I tried to lean in for a kiss but she refused. "Hey Felissa~" She said with a normal smile.

I hate when she acts like this. Awkward or upset after every little thing that happens. I know this because she calls me Ash not Felissa. She probably doesn't want me to bring up what she said yesterday. So I'm not going to force it, but I do have one condition. While everyone was vlogging I stood next to Tina and held her hand, "Let's forget about it. I just want to be your girlfriend right now..." I whisper to her. Her face softened at my request, she nodded her head and puckered her beautiful lips for me. I get my kiss when I got the chance, making me smile too.

We join the rest of Next Kidz as we explore downtown wearing our best street outfits. Everyone was taking pictures, videos, TikTok's, everything. I turned to Tina, "Wanna take a picture?" I ask. "Sure. But where?" I question. I point to a wall with a pretty graffiti art portrait. We asked Kaitlin to take the picture for us. We stood next to each other and smiled. For the last picture, I wrapped my arm over Tina's shoulder and pulled her close, resting my head on hers. She contributed by hugging my waist and hugging me close to her since I'm taller than her. We both blushed so the video turned out adorable.

Now we're at a Italian restaurant showing off our food to the vlog. Tina isn't sitting next to me. But that's fair I don't want to come off as clingy. I give the camera back to RiRi and she turns it off so we can eat. "How did that talk go with Naomi?" RiRi asks Tina. She swallows her food, "I hope I got through to her." She answers. "I assumed it was bad since she's not here." Sada says. Aniyah shakes her head, "Nah she has work today." She responds. "I have a question tho." Camille raises her hand. Everyone looks at her. "Are her and Miguel actually dating? Or was that in hopes of making you jealous?" She asks. "To make me jealous." Tina answers.

RiRi scoffs. "At her colossal age. What the fuck would she act so childish?" She spat. Tina gulps, "She's just reacting out of a broken heart..." she says, putting more food in her mouth so they won't ask her anymore questions. Angie tapped Tina's shoulder and whispered something to her, then they walked off, probably to the bathroom.

𝗺𝗮𝗿𝘁𝗶𝗻𝗮 𝗽𝗼𝘃
Last night was long. I had a long talk with Naomi and then I accidentally told Felissa I love her. I didn't mean for it to go serious because it was more like a passive joke because I love her as a friend but...we're not girl friends anymore. The truth is, I'm not in love with Felissa yet.

I FaceTimed Angie this morning about the situation and she told me to think about it. So I did. Now she wants an answer, "So?" She asks. I bite my lip and hesitantly shake my head no. Angie's face was surprised. "Are you serious?" She asks me again. I shake my head confidently, "I'm not in love with her yet." I admit, hugging myself as my gut growls in guilt. "How? What is she missing?" Angie keeps asking. "She's not missing anything she's amazing. But I take that word seriously, and it's not good timing yet. It's too soon." I say, I wish I never sent that text. Angie understands, "When are you going to tell her?" She asks. "Soon." I answer.

When everyone finished eating we went to the park. Why is everything going just like that date we had? Felissa and I broke ourselves off from everyone else and we held hands as we walked down the trail. She was quiet. I don't blame her. I swing our linked hands together so she won't feel so awkward and she gave me a small smile. Good enough.

"Ash." I say her name. She looks at me with those gorgeous doe eyes. My weakness. I take a deep breath before speaking, "Ash I-"

"I love you." She cuts me off.

My eyes widen. "What..?" I say feeling a little speechless. She tightens her grip on my hand, "I think I love you Tina..." She says it again. Now I feel guiltier. We barely started dating how is this possible.

I stop her from walking and face her, "Ash...how long have you felt that way?" I ask her. She starts getting nervous, "I d-don't know. All I know is that everyday I'm with you I fall more and more." She answers. "Since we've been sneaking around for a while my feelings have been there while we were girl friends." Then she does it again, her eyes reminded me of a puppy so big yet innocent. She does that when she wants something from me but this time I can't give her what she wants. "Ash I...I'm sorry...I'm not there yet." I try to say as nicely as possible.

She nods her head understanding. But that wasn't all. Since the sun was about to set I could see tears in her eyes on the brink of falling. Her emotions wanted to let loose but she was holding back. I can't take this anymore, "Ash, baby, dont..."

I made her cry.

Wrapping my arms around her neck I pull her into a tight hug as she cries into my shoulder. I wish I was in love with her I really do, but I need more time. "Hey...It's not your fault ok? I just need more time with you that's all." I try to comfort her. "I still believe in our connection. That hasn't changed. I'm not going anywhere." I say to her softly. It worked because she stopped crying and hugged me back. "Promise..?" She asks. "I promise."

I use my jacket sleeve to clean off her face. If there's one thing I hate more than her being mad at me, it's when she's sad. Especially if I'm the reason. "What can I do to make it up to you?" I ask her. She thinks about it, "I don't know..." She says. She's still a bit upset. I know the remedy tho. I hug her neck and stand on my toes, giving her a quick kiss. She was set aback at first but then she held my waist and kissed me again, lasting longer than before.

When we broke the kiss she was smiling again. "And a sleepover!" She adds. I laugh, "Big spoon or little spoon?" I ask. She starts blushing again, meaning she wants to be the little spoon again. "Little spoon it is~" I whisper giving her another kiss.

"Ugh you two are so sweet it gives me cavities!" RiRi shouts at us. We laugh and let go of each other. Angie gives me a secret thumbs up and I return one back to her. Honestly it could've been worse.