This story is about a 16 year old girl, Adrian Hellington as she find her way through life. She endures the effects of her childhood and the trauma it caused, along with the PTSD she faces. This story portrays the life of an unusual encounter of hop...
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Her words float around in my head
"We need to find you a man"
I don't want to seem like I ever need some man to hold up for me. I've done perfectly fine all my life. I've seen men for who they truly are and I don't think I'll ever want to put myself in that deep again.
Before my thoughts start to go wild I get a text from Carly.
Carly: He cheated on me
God I hate men...
Me: What do you mean he cheated on you? Who said?
Carly: A girl texted me on instagram with a "hey girly"
Me: Kill him
Carly: can I come over?
Me: Like I have a choice to say no
Carly: I'm omw
Carly is a sweet girl and I wouldn't have thought Josiah would be one of those guys. They seemed so in love, if this situation doesn't prove my theory I don't know what will.
20 minutes pass and I hear my door open. She has no expression on her face, just blankness. Why did it hurt me so much to see her like this? She never let anything or anyone get to her. It must've been that bad.
"Explain what happened" I said as I pat the spot on my bed next to me gesturing her to come sit.
"This girl texted me and said him and his friends went to a party last night and they played 7 minutes in heaven which I guess resulted in him and that bitch going for more than just 7 minutes" she pulled out the bitch card....uh oh.
"Carly I don't think you should be blaming the girl, I mean after all most girls know girl code I guarantee he didn't inform her of his relationship, you weren't in a relationship with her you were in a relationship with him" I say trying to get her to understand as I could feel the frustration radiating off of her. It feels like she could grow devil horns any minute now.
"How'd she find out about you?" I ask trying to slow the conversation down.
"She said one of Josiah's friends told her after and she was trying to find out who I was all night" she explains just as I hear her phone ringing.
"I swear to God and all things holy if that's him I'll burn his house down with him in it" I say, maybe the devil horns are growing out of my head instead.
We look at who's calling and what do you know, the man himself. She answers reluctantly, but instead of seriousness she's laughing. I'm gonna kill this girl too.
"What's so funny?" I try to whisper as quiet as I can.
She doesn't answer, how sweet of her.
"Yeah well me and Adrian are going to a party I can't talk right now, bye" she says as she hangs up the phone.
"No we're not" I say giving her THAT look.
"Of course we're not, I just want to piss him off" she laughs as she states
Something is definitely wrong with this girl man.
"But what we are doing, is binge watching all the seasons of Gilmore Girls and eating until we can't feel our faces" she says as she gets up to head to the kitchen.
"Praise the Lord" I say loud enough to where she can hear as I hear her laughing her way up the stairs.
After watching almost half of the seasons of Gilmore Girls I turn to face Carly only to find this girl slumped.
uh oh....
Here we go again. I swear my brain is like boxing it could go for rounds and rounds, or it's like something else..if you know what I mean.
"God why am I like this" I whisper to myself, embarrassed of the way my brain works.
Do I really need a man?
I've always felt content knowing I don't have someone I need to constantly check up on. I like it that way, I can read, sleep, eat and drink peacefully knowing I only need myself.
Sometimes I feel alone and wish I had someone. I do get jealous on multiple occasions when I see people enjoying their shared company with someone they're dating.
I finally get back to reality to convince myself I just need to sleep and I'll be fine tomorrow.
"I don't need anyone. Im good by myself" I whisper to myself before slowing falling asleep.
Peaceful sleep is what I was hoping for but man was I in for it. My dream consisted of this man, which I couldn't make out his face but his energy was all I needed to feel satisfied. In the dream we weren't doing anything besides talking. Even talking with this dream man I felt at peace like I was talking to myself.
I woke up abruptly when I felt like I was falling.
I can't even escape this lonesome feeling in my dreams. One things for certain, if I ever meet a man like the one I just encountered in my dream; I'd marry him right on the spot. If I don't then everyone can kiss their chances with me goodbye. As for right now, all I need is to sleep without interruption.
The next morning I felt uneasy. I blamed it on the thought I had last night simply because I never had a dream of someone I felt so connected to and didn't even see their face.
Carly was up already on her phone, which wasn't unusual except the fact that she'd be blaring her volume watching tiktok's but she wasn't.
"What are you doing?" I ask checking the time to see it was almost 12.
"Josiah texted me last night about 200 times when I was asleep saying he made a mistake and to take him back" she said calmly but I could tell she wasn't calm at all.
"What'd you say?" I asl trying to get have some sort of hope left.
"He said I could go to his house today and we can talk about it, he's coming at 1" she says avoiding eye contact.
Is she serious.
"Might as well throw you in the house with him before i ser fire to it" I say rolling over resisting the urge to shove her off the bed to knock some sense into her.
"It's not like I'm getting back together with him" she says still avoiding eye contact.
"You're simply just not fooling anyone Carly, hate to be the barer of bad news but" I say throwing up my arms as a result of my loss for words.
"You need to get laid" she says quietly just enough for me to hear.
I push her off the bed. I couldn't resist it.
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Do I really need someone? Will someone come along? I guess we'll have to wait and find out. THANK YOU FOR READING🩷
