To Live Past 20

Chapter 6} S Names

I've been in bed the past 2 weeks I can't bring myself to get up.

I don't know why I'm being affected this much but I am. Every night my mind wonders to the people who lost their lives and ask God why.

Carly keeps asking me to hang out and I blow her off every time, I just can't get up.

I feel terrible don't get me wrong but I don't have the courage or motivation to leave the house, more specifically my bed.

As my thoughts start to race I get a text from Carly.

I swear if she asks me to go out one more time I'm going to blow up.

Stage 2 anger

Carly: It's been weeks now Adrian, everyone's moved on you should too..Let's go do something

I know she means well but that didn't help me, if anything it made me want to stay here even more.

Me: I'll go out with you just today but if you ask me one more time I will not be so nice.

Carly: THATS MY GIRL! I'll see at 5

It's currently 4, I took a shower and ate a snack before trying my best to do makeup and look nice.

I haven't gotten myself ready in a hot minute.

I continue doing my makeup and to my surprise I look halfway decent.

Carly arrives and barges into my room.

I swear the second someone sees my door all knowledge of knocking is lost.

"LOOK AT YOU HOLY SHIT!" Carly says mouth wide open.

"Are you surprised by my beauty" I say sarcastically flipping my hair.

"I just haven't seen you all put together since-" she says before I cut her off.

"I know" I say dropping my face but instantly bust out laughing as she stands there in shock like I just said the most outrageous thing.

"I didn't mean it like that" she says looking embarrassed.

"It's fine Carly seriously it's fine" I say trying to contain my laughter as though I've never seen her this speechless.

"Okay well put some shoes on and let's go before the stores close" she says walking out.

Before the stores close.

I instantly snap out of my thoughts knowing we're not going to the mall just to target and others.

I rush upstairs with one shoe on trying to put the other on multitasking.

We arrive at target and I rush over to the books.

I've recently been wanting a new book since I've basically read every single book I have in my possession.