This will be a short story.
*You dont have to read Love and Music to understand, but you should 🙃🥺
Ever wondered how life was for Rian with Xander for those two years? Read to find out!
After breaking up with her boyfriend and Bestfriend, Rian fin...
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For a whole week, I stayed in bed. I couldn't eat anything. I only got out of bed to use the bathroom. When I wasn't asleep, I was just laying there, staring at the wall. If I believed in suicide, this would have been the last straw.
My phone continued to ring for days, until I just turned it off. I'm sure it was just Renee and Dean. Maybe even Chad, because I know I missed some studio sessions.
"Aye, you got Chad blowing my damn phone up. You been missing studio sessions!" He stopped talking when he seen me.
I wouldn't even look at him. My eyes never left my favorite wall. I heard him sigh, before I felt the bed dip down.
"Look I'm sorry okay. I was off some pills and I wasn't myself" Xander tried to touch me, but I flinched away from him. My stomach was in knots from lack of food.
"I love you Rian. I am so sorry baby. You know I would never hurt you like that"
Yeah, but you did though.
"You killed my baby" my voice was deep and cracked, from me not speaking for a week.
"Our baby. I'm sorry baby. I'll never hurt you like that again"
Hurt me like that? So you'll still hurt me, but just not that severely..... got it.
He forced me into his arms. My food deprived body had barely enough strength to stand, let alone fight him off. I was stiff as a board.
What snapped me out of it, was when I felt hit tears on my cheeks. I knew i wasn't the cause of them. It wasn't coming from me.
I looked up at Xander and he was biting his lip, trying not to ugly cry. My heart was thawing out at the sight of it.
Was I stupid?
Absolutely.
He had me brainwashed. I could never have who I really wanted and I didn't want to start all over.
No one wanted me. I was damaged goods. The July person who would ever want me was him.
I leaned up and wiped his tears.
"I'm so sorry baby. I didn't mean it" he now sobbed. I pulled him into my chest and let him cry by his self. I had no tears left to cry.
Maybe this was meant to happen. Maybe I wasn't meant to be anyone's mother.
I've always said I didn't want kids if East wasn't the father. Maybe god was punishing me for thinking that, but how much longer do I have to be punished?
I spent the rest of the night rubbing Xanders back until he fell asleep. Once I was sure he was out like a light, I snuck out of the room and turned my phone on.
Instantly it beeped numerous times. 10 missed calls from Chad. 100 missed texts from Renee and 200 missed calls from Renee.
