i love you

Ao'nungs letter

-ao'nungs pov-

It was saturday the day i always go to neteyams grave.

Slowly aproaching his grave my eyes started to fill with tears once again.

Sitting down getting ready to read the letter to him.
Hey,neteyam

It's ao'nung i know that you probably still don't forgive me and you have every right to not forgive me but please just lisen to me.

What i did was very wrong of me cheating after all you did for me.

The truth is after my dad got mad and treated me like shit i kept having that one hole in my heart thet just wont go away.

Thats when i started dateing lucy i thought mby if i dated a girl it would fix me,fix my dads and mine friendship.

At first it didn't help nothing changed i kept being with her hopeing... Hopeing that he would see me as his son again.

Once he came into my room at the hospital i thought that he found out about lucy... That, that was the reason he liked me again.

I didn't know that you where the reson he accepted me as me.

So i just kept the distant connection with her, as well as beeing with you

The night you found out i wanted to tell you about her when you went past me that night i was getting the gut to tell you about her.

I didn't know you would do this shit because of me, and this is no excuse.

I'm so sorry neteyam

I'm so deeply sorry

You could of have been cuddleing right now but no i had to fuck up once more.

And i'm sorry about what i'm about to tell you but i've moved on..

I meet this guy he is just like you pretty,funny, kind, carefull, lovely, smart and many more.

His name is max, the guy from history class.

Don't worry he knows about you about everything.

We go to yours and mine favorite places.

Like the beach, the park.

We do our little sleepovers that me and you did.

He cares for me like you did when ever i have a panic attack or think about  starting  sh again  he stops me

Oh neteyam, i wish you where here you and him would get along so good.

Lo'ak is broken he wont talk to me anymore or tsireya they broke up, you left us before you even knew they where together.

He never leaves his room anymore kiri told me but she told me by yelling at me blameing me for everything that happend.

Oh and tuk, she tried to get in contact with me but they stop her i hate life without you.

Tuk sometimes facetimes me in the middle of the night because she had a nightmare of you leaveing.

She doesn't get kiri, lo'ak or your parents because she hates them for not letting her talk to me.

Your parents arent the same anymore we are still in contact with them but your whole family whent deppressed.

We all miss you i just don't understand why you had to get rid of your problems like that.

Once again i'm deeply sorry.

-ao'nung