Love is the greatest despair

To Be Loved, Is To Be Changed

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"To be loved, is to be changed". I have always hated this quote. I did not believe in it, I did not like it. Because I did not want to change so that I can be loved by someone. The one who will truly love me will love me for the way I am. I did not want to change for someone. I wanted, at least the one who will love me to love me for the way I am. Because I know how hard it is to love a heart like mine that is why I want someone to love me, love the most hidden part of me. I didn't want them to love a person I created  just for them. That is why I hated that quote.
I did not understand it.

I did not understand it, I did not understand it until I, myself found love.

The quote, "To be loved, is to be changed" did not mean that if you wanted to be loved you have to change. It meant when you love, you will change. Love will change you whether you want it or not. Love will most certainly change you.

When you love someone, you would want them to see that you can be good for them, that you can treat them better, love them more than anyone. That's why when in love you will change.
You will change to be better, you will hide the habits that might hurt your beloved, you will want to become the someone they will love.

That is why, when you love you will slowly but certainly change.

But, change does not always mean you will change for better. You can change for the worst. When love, you will either find yourself or lose yourself. You will find sanity or find insanity.

In love, people are known to loss their common sense. Do things, they normally would not do. They would do things morally wrong, just for the sake of their love. I don't know about how people think about this, but personally? I find it beautiful.

To get lost, just because of someone? How can that not be beautiful? That is a love worth living for.

But, it is also beautiful, how someone could have been so desperate, hopeless, nothing in this world could keep them going. But, just because of love? Just because of love, they will find themselves? Find themselves, try to live their lives? Just because of their beloved? That's how much they love. They live, because they want to be better for the one they love. They live because they don't want to leave their loved one. That is beautiful.

Love, itself is a very, very beautiful thing. Cruel? Yes. But so beautiful.

People can love, love enough to let go of their purpose, love their beloved more than themselves. Love enough to change.

So, when I found love, I could understand the meaning behind the quote quite deeply. I do not know whose quote is that and if it even means what I understood it means. But, that's how I think it is.

How can I not? When, I have noticed myself changing? When I want to become someone she loves? Yes, the changes, it's not noticeable, but it's there. I am changing. I am changing just because of love.

I do not know, if I am changing for the better or the worse. But, I feel, I have found my true self. Yet, there are moments I can feel that I am losing my sanity just for love.

Because of her, I have both found myself but am losing my sanity. Maybe because my true self is insanity? Maybe, I didn't have sanity to begin with? I just hid it so I can fit in with the society?

I did not care either way. Whether the change is good for me or bad. If it meant people hating me, for love? I would do it. The change, is all because of love. So, I do not care.

I am changing, I am changing because of love. I am change because of her, because of my beloved.

    
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