unexpected love [ TAMBER STORY ]

I've felt so strange. (Will you talk to me again?)

TARAS POV, 

 TW; OD ATTEMPT, SELF HARM

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''No, wait amber im-''

''Don't you dare apologize. Get your ass out of my fucking room.'' Amber snapped at me, her deep brown glare scanned my eyes that were filled with a wary and fearful stare.

I turned around, now facing the door. And without a word, I opened the door and walked out. As I did so, I felt a glare on me until I was fully gone.

I stopped once the door was closed, shutting my eyes with force and slouching against the wooden, school like door that locked automatically.

''fuck.'' I lifted my head up to face at the roof above me, tapping my foot as i swallowed a lump forming in my throat. I simply stayed in that exact position for three more minutes, until I finally decided to walk away and maybe even move on.

I waved to the front desk lady who knew me as a kid. ( I got multiple broken bones when I was younger.) I continued to walk out of the building, walking over to a bench on the side of the entrance doors.

I sat there for 23 minutes, debating if i wanted to just walk home, or if i should call an uber with the little money I had on me at the moment.

Suddenly, my phone began to vibrate, i grasped it out of my pocket and held it up to my face. I had gotten a text. from Wes. I shuddered as i opened messages, reading off his text in my mind.

WES: Hey baby! -

YOU: hi

WES: is everything okay?

WES: are you still upset amber is in the hospital?

YOU: what the fuck do you think

WES: I think you should get over it, she's alive anyway? right?

READ: 4:29 P.M

I shut off my phone with force, setting it on the seat next to me as I leaned my head back, now staring at the baby blue colored sky above me.

after a few minutes, I drew myself off the bench, grabbing my phone and lifted my arms into the air, letting out a long groan as I stretched.

I ended up walking home, still feeling fucking terrible for what i said to amber. i love her more than anything, yet I still pulled that shit? what was wrong with me?? fuck, she probably hates me now, doesn't she? Once i made it home, it was around 7:00pm, i quietly closed the front door and made it into my house, quickly yet very silently.

Walking up the stairs to my room and opening my door. walking inside, i shut it behind me and went to sit on the edge of my bed with silky blankets, still processing what exactly happened today.

[ TW ]

What the hell was wrong with me? I loved amber, more than anything and I still told her all of that shit. my eye twitched before tears began streaming down my face. Thinking about what I said, I gripped my phone and threw it on the hardwood floors with much force, making the break fall off the actual phone, multiple things falling from my case breaking. Those multiple things being 28 dollars, my credit card, my ID, and a blade. All of these were scattered among my hardwood floors.