unexpected love [ TAMBER STORY ]

I just remembered; I was lonely.

AMBERS POV.

slowly opening my eyes, rubbing them, and glancing up to meet Taras closed eyes. I had fallen asleep on her. I felt my face heat up before laying my head back onto her chest, trying my hardest not to wake the girl. I quickly fell back asleep, and she woke up when I was now asleep. I was in her arms as I slept peacefully. I was a very light sleeper, so I woke up as soon as I felt Tara move her arms off of my back. I lifted my head and met her now open eyes. I got lost in them for a short time before laying my head onto her chest and holding her closer, we didn't say a word for minutes. we just laid there together, my arms wrapped around her chest, and her arms wrapped around my torso.

finally, I spoke. ''Good morning. '' my voice was muffled, as I didn't move my head from her chest when I spoke. I listened to her heartbeat as she replied to me with a simple ''morning. '' when my eyes finally averted up to her, she was on her phone. ''what's up? '' I asked her. she simply shrugged, not moving her eyes away from the screen. I sighed as I heard her phone vibrate and she smiled at the message.

it was Wes, wasn't it?

I rolled off of her onto the other side of the bed, then sat up. I cupped Tara's face and kissed her. she didn't deny it, but she wasn't passionate about it, at least she closed her eyes during it.

right?

as our lips pulled away, she turned her head back to her phone and continued to message whoever she was before. 'I have to go. '' she muttered. ''but the car doesn't work? 'I reply, scrunching my nose with confusion. ''I can walk, Wes invited me over, and he's not too far from here. ''

''oh. okay. '' i nodded slowly. ''want me to walk you there? '' i ask. ''sure. whatever. '' she responds.

as we walked out the door, Taras's eyes were glued to her phone, we walked across the street, but because of how little she was paying attention, a car came speeding her way. I grabbed her arm and pulled her close, just out of the way. ''amber, what the hell? '' she snaps, I don't think she realized what had just happened. ''I just saved your LIFE. at least be somewhat grateful. ''

Tara looked at me with surprise. ''what? '' she asks ''yeah. a car came speeding your way. 'I turned and continued walking so I couldn't hear her response.

I heard her sigh behind me and speed-walked, so she was right next to me. ''I'm sorry.'' she quickly states. ''can we just... Hurry to Wes's house. ''I mumble. I felt my throat close like I was about to sob. I look over at Tara, and she nodded.

we arrived at his house after a good 10 minutes. ''okay. here we are. I should head back now. ''I turn. ''okay. pick me up tomorrow?'' she asks me, I nod and continue walking back.

once I made it home by running, I opened the door and ran up to my room, quite literally jumping into bed and crying into my pillow. why was this happening to me?  did I do something wrong in life?

I cried myself to sleep that night.

I woke up to my phone ringing loudly. it was Tara. I denied the call and threw my phone across the room. it hit the ground with a large thump. I heard the phone shatter. I inhaled sharply before closing my eyes and going back to sleep.

after an hour or so, I heard someone open my door and sit down on my bed. my eyes slowly opened, and I turned onto my side, noticing Tara. I closed my eyes again, turning my head back to my pillow.

''you said you'd pick me up from Wes's house.'' Tara huffed. ''sorry. I slept in. what time is it anyway?'' I turn onto my back, still avoiding eye contact with Tara. ''it's like three-something.'' I heard Tara mutter. ''when did you go to bed?'' she questioned me. I hated it, so I stayed silent.  ''amber.'' she grabbed my shoulders, shaking me around a bit.

''6:37 am.'' I replay in a very plain tone. I avert my eyes from the ceiling to Tara, her eyes were wide. ''what? '' Tara replied with shock. I shrugged. I noticed she grabbed my head and pulled me in for a hug. after a second of me melting into her warmth, I shook my head back to reality and moved back. ''the car is fixed. you can go now. '' I stated quietly. ''I don't have my license? '' Tara replied, frowning. ''I'll take you home. '' I sat up, wiping the dried tears from last night away. I'll meet you outside. '' I didn't wait for Tara to respond as I stood up and walked to the restroom.

once I finished getting ready, my mind began to race. why am I like this? I was such a jerk to Tara just because of some stupid jealousy. I wanted to apologize to her, but how could I? it would be so embarrassing to show my face to her after this. god. we weren't even girlfriends; I had no reason to be jealous. it was so stupid.

I made it to the car, wiping the tears from when I was in the restroom off my cheek. I strapped myself in with the seatbelt and waited for Tara to arrive at the car.

when she did, I turned on the car with its new engine, it was still silent. I pulled out of the driveway. it was silent the whole drive. we got to Tara's house, and she undid her seatbelt, opened the door, and walked up the driveway. I waved goodbye to her as she made it to her porch. Tara didn't wave back. she just went inside.

as I drove back home, my mind began to race once again. she didn't wave back. she didn't say ANYTHING about the ride home. did I make her upset? why did I have to get jealous so easily? it was just a dumb boy; I didn't even know what they did! they could've just watched a movie and gone to bed or something.

I made it home and speed-walked inside, up the stairs, and into my room. I slammed the door and flopped down into bed face first, head in my pillows. I began to sob once again as I held a stuffed animal Tara gave me when we were kids. would I always be like this? sad, alone, and confused. I didn't understand my love life, let alone my own life. I was so confused, I and Tara kissed so many times, then the next day she acts as if nothing had ever happened and goes to Wes's house, and she knows he likes her.

I decided I wouldn't show Tara affection, let alone anyone.

not even myself.

it would be for the best.

right?