unexpected love [ TAMBER STORY ]

why am i still here?

AMBERS POV, TW; MENTIONS OF SEWERSLIDE, INJURIES, ARGUMENTS, N AN ATTEMPT

I inhale sharply.

my eyes flickered over to the car speeding my way on my right side. I got back to my senses and quickly stepped on the brake pedal. but the car kept coming my way.

I quickly and tightly close my eyes and took a deep, shaky breath. I felt the force of the car hitting the right side of my car. the pressure intense.

it felt like my body split open.

suddenly, there was a ringing in my ears, it felt as if someone shot me inside of my ear.

I woke up.

but it wasn't in my bed, or even my room.

I glanced around, noticing Tara sitting in a chair next to the bed I was in; asleep. I was so confused. what the hell happened? I sat up, millions of questions racing through my head.

As I felt my heart pound faster by the second, the monitor next to me beeped faster, copying the pattern. I quickly glanced away from Tara to the heart monitor. I felt like I couldn't face her, I was so terrible to her.

as my heartbeat went back into its normal rhythm, I slouched back into the hospital bed, grunting as I hit my head on the headboard in my attempt to lay back down in the same position I was in before. That was loud enough to snap Tara out of her deep slumber because when my pupils finally flicked over to look at her, she was tilting her head back up and she was beginning to straighten her posture in the chair. for some reason, I couldn't take my eyes off of her. Once I snapped back into reality, I noticed her gaze resting on me; I quickly averted my gaze away from anywhere near the direction she was in.

''hey. '' Said Tara, breaking the silence. Her voice seemed weak and raspy. it almost felt like she had cried for a long time earlier.

I said nothing back, I just simply moved my pupils up to meet hers, keeping my head down as I did this.

Tara noticed this and stood up. I watched her walk closer to the hospital bed, and before I knew it, she was sitting on the edge of it, sighing.

''are you mad at me? '' Tara mumbled, looking directly at me.

I didn't respond. all I did was move my gaze down to stare at the bed sheets as I fidgeted with my thumbs.

after a few minutes of plain silence, Tara stood up and without a word, began to walk out of the room. Though, before she got to the door I called out to her.

''I'm sorry. ''

I averted my gaze, only to watch her stop in her tracks and turn to look at me.

''why? '' Tara asked, locking eye contact with me.

I shifted into the hospital bed. '' I don't know. '' I mumbled, loud enough for her to hear ever so slightly. I blinked, realizing something. ''yeah. I don't know why IM sorry. YOU should be the one apologizing. you've been a dick to me for MONTHS. and you got with Wes when it was obvious we both liked each other, AND I wanted a relationship with you. '' a small, soft laugh came from under my breath. ''Honestly Tara. this is your fault. '' I added to what I said before, squinting aggressively at the shorter girl to the left of me. Tara just stared at me; eyes wide. ''Why did you start dating Wes? He's always been a huge dick to everyone but you, and that's because he had a fat crush on you since you met. and the crazy thing is, you guys met three years ago! remember when we met? It was in third grade Tara. '' I never moved my glare from the shorter girl, tears welling in my eyes