GAYPOCALYPSE

New feelings.

I never really thought about dating or relationships, let alone my sexuality. But I know how I feel about Ron. I like him a lot, but I'm not even sure if he feels the same way. But then it hit me. Am I gay? Do I like other boys? Or is it just the idea of loving someone that makes me happy? I just know that the whole time we were in the woods together I couldn't stop looking at him, his face, his eyes, hair. I couldn't help myself. Which takes us to where we are now. He was just smiling at me after I had planted a kiss on his cute, caring face. He looked at me and said
"It's okay."
Then he looked at me for a minute, and kissed me back. He bolted off and was gone. What had even just happened? I was so confused. I didn't ignore the fact that him kissing me made me feel happy. Really happy.

The rest of that day was stressing. I wanted to go talk to him but I was worried that he'd be mad, or just would act like it never happened. I don't know about him, but the experience for me was really great.

Waking up the next morning, I got up to get downstairs when I found my dad.
"Where were you yesterday? I couldn't find you, I was worried sick." My dad asked curiously.
"Just hanging around with Ron mostly... Nothing else." I replied

During breakfast, the only thing I could think about was Ron. I couldn't get him off my mind. So after I ate I went right over to Ron's house and asked to come in to speak with him. In his room, he was just lying on his bed, he just looked at me, and I was just staring as well.
"It's okay. I liked it, it felt right. Like it was supposed to happen." Ron told me
"You liked it?" I asked in relief
"I like you, Carl. These few days you have been here I couldn't stop thinking about you." He confessed to me.
By this point I was blushing.
"Look I know you are with Enid, but I have to tell you that... I really like you. A lot. And I don't know if I'm gay, or if I'm just kidding myself but I know what I feel right now is real and that I want to be with you, And that you make me so freaking happy when I'm around you and I just can't help thinking about what it would be like hugging you everyday." I sputtered out quickly.

We then stared at each other, like we have been for the majority of the time I have been in his room, and kissed me on the mouth.

I wasn't going to argue with him because honestly this is what I wanted all along. I just kissed him back, gently and shyly for about 30 seconds.

When we finished we both laughed. I stayed at his house for hours. I told him about my mom, the governor, terminus, the prison, and all of the people that we lost along the way to where we are now. Tyreese, Beth, Noah, Hershel, Andrea, Amy, Sophia, and everyone else... There were almost too many.

He felt sorry for me. He said he never really understood what happened out there and how lucky he was to have this place.

We never left his room. I had to leave but before I was able to get to the door he had turned me around, and kissed me on the cheek with a smile. I smiled back at him and walked home grinning.