𝗟𝗼𝘃𝗲 𝗜𝘀 𝗘𝘃𝗲𝗿𝘆𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴 ☆♥︎𝐙𝐍𝐍 𝐅𝐀𝐍𝐅𝐈𝐂☆♥︎

Why?♾️

Zee and I were here at a restaurant, It's already lunch and he want to eat outside.

Nuw, Max was coming, He just had a discussion about work; I looked at him and nodded.

It's okay Zee; I wiped my lips when I saw Max but my smile disappeared when I saw the person next to him.

Good afternoon Zee, Nuw; I smiled to Max and saw that Nat also looked in my direction.

Good afternoon P'zee and Nuw; I didn't answer and sat quietly, I saw that Zee held my hands so I just smiled at him.

What do you want to talk about Max? Zee asked max, I just silently listening to them as they both talked so do Nat.

For the next project, I already told you right about the resort? Max says to Zee.

Yea why? Zee says.

Nat and I already talked about getting Mr. Kiel to be the engineer for the construction of the resort; Max got my attention but I remained silent.

Mr. Kiel? Zee says and looks at me.

Yes P'zee, I know them kiel, I'm sure they can do it right, I've known them since high school; Nat say's, Napa I bowed to my fist.

Any idea about this now? They all looked at me after zee mentioned my name.

I don't know; I just answered, I don't trust Kiel but I'm not in a position to say that either.

Nuw, What's wrong? I shook my head at Zee, I can see the concern face of him while looking at me.

The business was huge, I- I don't think they can handle that; I told Zee silently.

They can, I believe on them, They are not perfect but I know they can; This time it was Nat who answered me, I look at him seriously.

How did you say so? Is it because you are like them? I can't stop being sarcastic with him, I saw the shock on his face.

What do you mean? Don't include our personal misunderstanding here, We talked about work here nunew, I know you're mad at them but that can't be the reason for you to do this to them, You know how good they are; I shook my head at what he said.

I don't know anything about them, I don't even know if everything they say is true, You're right we talked about business here, I'm just concerned about the company I work for; I answered him, Max and Zee were just listening quietly, It seems they let us both talk.

Are we really talking about business here? I haven't been with you for a few years but I still know you, I know you whether you're angry or not, You're being unreasonable here nunew, Yes, let's say they have sin against you, Let's say they broke your trust but did you know everything that happened wasn't thier intention too, Your heart was filled with anger, You saw nothing but their mistake then, You knew they were good but you put it aside because of your personal feelings, Nunew you are good at business and I know that but stop being unreasonable, They need this project more than you think, You don't know how much this project is worth to them, Lot's of thier employees are waiting for this project; I leaned back in my chair, Is what I'm doing unreasonable? I just want to protect Zee's company to them, They cannot be trusted.

You said what you wanted to say but I only said what I thought was right, You said I was unreasonable? Why is there something wrong with what I said? Is it wrong for me to protect the company that more than a thousand people depend on it, People close to me worked there, They also have families, It is wrong if I think about their condition? But you're right on one thing, Maybe I said this because I can't trust the people you're talking about; I told him, He couldn't believe what he heard.

Ha...haha..Hahaha... He was laughing while looking at me but his face immediately became serious.

Maybe it's right that you don't know the truth yet, Because I'm sure you'll regret what you're doing right now, I feel sorry for you nuw; I couldn't stop my hand from hitting the table because of what he said.

I don't need your mercy; I emphasize my words to him. He just looked at me seriously.

I feel sorry because you don't know the truth, Do you know that they sacrificed a lot for you, They did a lot that you don't know about because all you can see is the mistake they made before, You are no longer the one I knew, Not me and especially it's not them who changed you but you yourself, You are the one who changed yourself nunew, You made yourself believe that everyone left you, You made yourself believe that everyone lied to you but the truth is you can't admit to yourself that you made a mistake too, You made a mistake too nunew, No matter what you say, you can't change the fact that you made a mistake too; He said to me, I blinked because of what he said, Memories flash and I don't like what I feel.

But that's not enough reason for you to hurt me like this,  Why? Why is it so easy for you to turn your back on me, Why did you do that to me, You are my friend my brother, You are with me through everything but you were able to hurt me like this, Why Nat? What did I do to deserve this punishment? Yes, I'm guilty but that's not enough for you to turn away from me, That's not enough for you to punish me like this, Do you know how hard it is to live when almost every night you ask why you did it to, Every day I ask myself if my sin is so big that the punishment you give me is so cruel, You don't know anything Nattasitt, Do you really think you know me? You don't know me because even I, I don't know myself, You know my dream is simple but because of all of you it's been destroyed; I screamed at him as my tears fell.

No one turned their back on you nunew, Everyone has a reason, I want to tell you that reason but I can't right now, I don't want to waste the effort made by everyone who loves you,  I know something that you can't know right now, If only you knew how much they love you, If only you knew how they blamed themselves for what happened but everything has already happened and that cannot be changed; I closed my eyes tightly at what he said and my tears continued to flow.

Too late for that explanation Nattasitt, It's been so many years passed, I waited for that explanation, Many years had passed I could no longer believe it anymore, It's too late; I wiped my tears and looked at him.

I will not force you to forgive me or even them, but I hope one day when you know the truth, You will be able to forgive yourself because we want nothing else but your safety, Nunew if this is the last time I can talk to you, I would like to tell you this, I don't regret that you became my friend, I don't regret what I did for you, I love you as my friend and brother, If only I could bring everything back on that time, It would be better if I were the one to disappear that day, I don't know when will everything go back to what we used had but I hope you stay happy no matter trials come, I'm always here even if you can't see it; His tears flowed as he said that and so am I, I immediately took my bag and immediately ran out of this room, Why? Why does it still hurt to this day, I thought when I talk to him again my heart will somehow be strong, I thought everything I thought was right but I don't know anymore if who tell the truth and who tell lies, I'm confused by what happened and what they say.

Why? Why do we had to get to this point.... We used to be brother.