𝖧𝖾𝖺𝗋𝗍 𝖰𝗎𝖺𝗄𝖾 ☆♥︎𝐙𝐍𝐍 𝐅𝐀𝐍𝐅𝐈𝐂☆♥︎

Past Relationships ♾️

Since I left yesterday, I went straight to this place, I smiled sadly as I looked at the tombstone where he lay for the rest of his life.

Have you forgiven me, Zane? My tears started to flow again.

As long as I live I will apologize to you, I'm sorry, I'm sorry if I failed you, I'm sorry if I left you, I'm sorry if I wasn't by your side when you needed me, Maybe dad was right, I'm useless, I always do nothing right, Im so sorry Zane; I held his tombstone while my tears did not stop flowing, It's been four years my love, Four years since you left me, I was left alone in a world that was very cruel to me.

I wish I can go to you, I wish you bring me along but like what you said, I had to live my life to the fullest even people turn their back on me, I will be nunew who can stand on his own, I might not they same but I will move forward for our dreams, I still believe that one day, I can see you, One day I can hugged you, One day I can kiss you, I love you Zane; I removed the died petals on his tombstone and I wiped my tears, Remembering how happy we are back then.

When I'm gone, always remember that you're the person I loved, Maybe we're worlds apart, but I'll always be by your side, babe.

Don't say that, Zane. I thought you would marry my friend? Nat says to him, "We're all so closed back then."

If god allows me, I will marry him with all my heart, But we don't hold the future Nat, If one day I disappear please take care of him for me, Take care of him for me; Zane said, I shook my head and touched his face.

We will face this together, Didn't you say that nothing is impossible when we are together? I told him while smiling, Zane had brain cancer, so he was always here in the hospital since it got worse, but we're lucky enough when the doctor allowed us to bring him outside today.

I sat beside him while Nat was on the other side, We watched the man who played piano in the park since we're here.

I want to bring you anywhere, babe, so please get well soon; I told Zane, He smiled and held me hands.

I will, I promise to bring you in Chang Mai, right? I nod my head, It's our dream destination.

Why don't you guy's telling me that you want to go to Chang Mai? I can bring you both there since my family had a resort there; We both look at Nat, who's frowning in front of us.

It's a plan for both of us, Nat; I told Nat, He rolled his eyes, and he looked back at the piano, man, but I could see his smile. 

Babe, I just want to make sure that there's someone beside you; I hold his hands, and I look back at Nat.

I'm sure he will always stay beside me, Babe; I look at Zane after I say those, He smiles and kisses my hands.

I looked up at the sky, and it looked like it was going to rain again, Those happy memories were just gone so fast.

I didn't think that the person I love would disappear in an instant, I also didn't think that the people I trusted would betray me.

Nuw, Zane.....Zane; I looked at Nat when he said this.

I was about to run but I was shocked to see dad in our university, What is he doing here?

Nunew; I was stunned on where I stood because of his scary aura around him, I didn't realize that he was already in front of me and immediately slapped me on my face, which I was surprised What did I do wrong this time?

D-dad? I was surprised when he violently pulled my hands away, but I remembered Zane.

Dad, please, let me go, Zane needs me, Please; I beg, I need to go see Zane, He needs me.

Shut up; He angrily says when we reach the parking lot, I already saw lots of men's here. I know that this is his bodyguards.

What did I do wrong? I asked him, He turned his back at me and I saw that his secretary handed him a white envelope.

You are a shameless person, You have brought nothing but shame to this family, When will you be honest; He shouted and threw an envelope in my face but when I saw what inside on it my whole body went cold. I didn't feel anything when he punched my face.

Tito we can explain; I turned to where I heard his voice, I was wrong because they were all here.

You don't need to defend this shameless person, I can never expect anything from you, You are a useless child; Dad shouted, I shook my head and tried to stand up.

It's not true, dad. Please believe me; He was about to answer, but I was surprised by what my friend Kiel said, How could he?

False? Let's first admit the truth, Nat himself told us that I shook my head because he was lying.

How could you do this to me, You know it's not true, How could you; I shouted at him and looked at dad but Sailor said that I was afraid of something because of what he did next.

This is the evidence nuw; They showed dad something that made him even more angry, he immediately grabbed me and punched me again but this time in the stomach so I almost lost my breath but I continued to shake my head, It's not true, How could they betray me? What did I do wrong, or did they do this to me?

I bowed my head after remembering those moments, Those moments that change me, My family and friends there not existing to me anymore, I don't need anyone because I don't want to betrayed again, The only people who trust me are now gone.

This is the reality, This is how the world goes around.

Sometimes I thought why, why were people close to me able to fool me, I did nothing wrong on them, so why, Why were they able to hurt me like this.

I shook my head and looked up at the sky and then it started raining, it always happens like this every time I visit you, are you still mad at me zane?

Sorry babe, if I didn't make it to your last day, I'm sorry if I wasn't by your side.

If I could go back to the time I was with you, I'd rather stay by your side forever, If I could go back to the past I would choose people I could trust wisely, Our friends betrayed me, They all left me and cheated me, Zane can you tell me what was my sin? Have I been a bad friend and above all, have I been a bad son? I shook my head because no matter how many times I asked, He couldn't answer me.

I let the rain touch my face and still looked at his tombstone, I did nothing but to make them proud, but no matter what I did, They always saw my mistake.

I didn't realize that my body had fallen to the ground, Everything became blurry to me until everything went dark.